
Dear you
I'm missing the old you
I miss the way you told me you loved me by writing on the piece of paper. To me it was just simply more beautiful than any greeting card I'd ever received in my life
I miss the day you let me sleep in your car becoz I was tired, then you drove me round round the city to have time to sleep, after that you bought me a pizza.
I miss all the old sms, some of them were just simply "Love you", some of them were like poems that made me cry each time I read them all over again, because I know you really meant it...
I miss the way you surprised me by sending me flowers not on any special occasions. You'll never know how it did brighten up my day, even days after.
I miss the way you waited for me in front of my house each time we had a date, then you'd open the door for me. You know what, my neighbours just envied me because of that gesture, and they kept talking about it each time they met my mom.
I miss the way you told me you're a very busy man, so you'd not be able to see me everyday, but you'd miss me everyday. I cried because I felt, I understood, and I promised myself that I'd try to be a good gf
I can't list all the things I'm missing about the 2-years-ago-guy
Because there're too many things. And funny how it is, I'm still crying now for thinking about all the old memories with that guy
But it's about 2 years ago...
Life is getting tougher and tougher everyday. It challenges people. It drives people crazy sometimes. And it makes people forget about things once happened
Now you still drive me round the city, but we are just in silence, or maybe you keep talking on your phone with your business partners
Now you still buy me flowers, but when I asked you "why don't you buy me some flowers?"
Now you still text me everyday, but it's getting shorter, and sometimes we just end up by fighting. Like yesterday, you told me you never like texting... So who was the one sending me all the old sms that made me cry?
Now you still tell me you're busy, and you also say I don't really understand how hard your day is...
And now, when did the last time you told me "I love you" and you really mean it? :)
Today is the 2nd anniversary. Last year you weren't here with me bcoz you had to go to Thailand for business. I think maybe this year, I don't really wanna see you because I don't wanna ruin this day. It's very important to me, and I wanna keep it for me, only me...
Don't you remember what once happened between you and me?
So after today, I'd throw everything belongs to the past away
And I'll stop dreaming, just living with the present
Because it's all over
It's time to face the reality
When Fun has gone, Romance has died, Love seems to be the habit of wanting someone when you don't have anything else to entertain
:)
Happy Annversary Hallie