Missing you, grandma

If I had a wish

I wish I'd see my grandma once again... even only once, in my dream

Just wanna see her face, hold her hand.... even only once again

Grandma I miss you. I really do :)

I bet you're now in heaven with grandpa, looking at us.

I pray for you everyday :) Because I know you always hoped we'd :)



Today I don't go home, spend tonight with my parents coz my hubby is outta town for business. Sometimes it's' good to feel like the old days, when I was young. But there's something missing in my heart coz now I don't have my grandma here, not anymore

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Anyway I'll try to move on :) tho I do really miss her, and tho I still cry everytime I think about her

God bless :)

Have you ever...?

Have you ever felt lost among so many people?

Have you ever felt you belong to somewhere else but you must stay to not upset people?

Have you ever felt your heart is broken into pieces and it hurts you more than any physical pain?

Have you ever felt you love this person but the one who makes you feel so you and so complete is someone else?

Have you ever wanna be alone just to know who really cares?

Have you ever felt so exhausted that you don't give a damn in anything, you just want life flows you away?

Have you ever felt so crazy in love but the one you love just give you an easy smile that blows your all passion away?

Have you ever just wanted to stay in someone's arms and that means enough to you?

Have you ever just wanted to stay away to get no hurt at last?

Have you ever just wanted ao badly a text saying that "I miss you"? Or an unexpected flower?

Maybe all I need now is Passion. Passion in Life and Passion in Love.

I don't want a dead life.

Bà ơi...

I still can't believe that my grandma has gone, forever.

She left us...  after a long time got sick.

But I still can't accept the truth.

I still miss her a lot, that sometimes I forget that she's not here anymore.

I didn't spend enough time to be with her in her last days. In my mind, she always was there, in her room, so everytime when I was back to my house, I usually looked in her room just to make sure that she was there. But now nobody is there, nobody is lying on that bed anymore...

I remember all the memories we had together. She was the one who raised me up, who taught me my first writing, who took me to school when my parents was busy. I remember when I was just a lil kid, every morning she woke me up, helped me to dress up tho at that time I did wish that she'd allow me to dress more beautifully. Then we went out for breakfast together, hand in hand...

Grandma, I miss you. I really really miss you. Everytime I think about you, I can't stop crying, like I am now... I can't believe that you're gone... I can't believe that now I won't ever ever have a chance to hold your hand anymore, to say hi to you anymore, to answer all of your questions about my husband, you always worried that whether he was good to me or not... 

Please God, bring her to heaven to be with you.

Bà ơi, bà ơi... Con nhớ bà nhiều lắm..