A try

I promise that I will try my best . Having a sensitive heart is really tired, I don't wanna my feeling to depend on ppl's words and acts anymore...

If you ever let me down. At least I'll try to feel nothing and I'll try to not cry because of you anymore. I'll not feel upset becoz of the way that did make me feel upset anymore..

I don't wanna continue this situation again: sitting alone, drinking something and feeling upset about someone who doesn't know about what is going on. That's really unfair and wasting of time to wonder the question Have I ever crossed your mind?

Maybe...it's time for me to loosen the string between us, in order to find another US again.

I'll be back to the girl once I used to be, feeling nothing and being tough enough, to save my heart outta troubles.

Mây

Mình cứ như đang là mây ý

Bồng bềnh

Lơ lửng

Chông chênh

Chống chếnh

Phồng phềnh

:))

Một cảm giác rất kỳ ảo và không xác định

I need a >:D< , really...

Open-minded

Yep, I'm on my way to be a very open-minded girl . Whatever will be, will be. So don't think too deeply. Everything that I think it'd be and it should be, now I will delete them all. Nothing is a must-have or must-happen

You can do whatever you like, so do I.
You can go wherever you like, so do I.
You can say whatever you like, so do I.

I won't wait for answer . I won't feel for answer . Not anymore

Alright, so is it good enough?

I wanna be more independent

:))

Standing in between

I really hate standing in between

I don't know, but I'm feeling guilty somehow

Sorry if I caused any mistake, and believe me that I didn't mean that

...

Sick, still sick, I forgot my medicine last night, so I'm suffering a new Sick in me again

Sickness makes me become quite sensitive in every single way. Easy to be hurt, easy to be touched, easy to get mad, easy to say something inside that I just wanna hide, easy to be crazy

oh lah

Em và anh

Em và anh

Cứ yêu nhau, rồi cãi nhau, rồi hòa. Rồi yêu nhau, rồi cãi nhau, rồi hòa. Rồi lại yêu nhau, rồi cãi nhau, rồi hòa...

Thế này đến bao giờ?

Có kéo dài được lâu không?

Có kéo dài được mãi không?

Lâu là bao lâu?

Mãi mãi là bao lâu?

Samedi - Good news and Bad news

Hello, this is me Hallie

Bad news is I'm still sick merde

Good news is I got a kinda great day with my bf. Went out to watch movie then got back to his house to watch movie again :)) lol but I guess it was the best choice for someone who's sick and still wants to hang out on a Saturday night

And another good news. I'm going to Vinpearl land next month to see the Miss VN World 2010 :X never seen that kinda show b4 so I'm really excited

Ah, last tip : A big cup of coffee will really help when you're sick

That's all for today. Thanks for today darling :x , anyway you surprised me :))

Sick

It's like a dream altho I'm not asleep

Got sick again, brr and it makes me feel really headache this time. Anyway jst wanna keep updating smt on this

Bless me dah

Got a very messy morning, now everybody seems to be quiet a lil bit. Headache headache headache. just don't kill me this way pls

Anybody's heart

It's a great big world to a scared little girl
If you smile just right no one knows you might have
A heart full of pain and a soul that can't reign
And a stomach full of butterflies

All that I wanted was just to feel safe
Safe in your arms

Say you didn't mean to
Say I wouldn't understand
But it's time you say something
God knows it's the one thing I need
And the heart you broke
Know it wasn't just anybody's heart

So I bit my nails and I held my breath
And I said "I'm fine" yeah, I did my best
But you can't tell me you never knew the truth
Of all the fear I felt, how I worried about you

And all that I wanted was just to feel safe
Safe in your arms

I was yours, I was yours
And the heart that you broke
Was devoted and pure
And it wasn't just anybody's heart

Do you know

Do you know when did the last time I cry?

Do you know what is my favourite song recently?

Do you know the book that I'm reading is?

Do you know when did I go to bed last night?

Do you know what did I do yesterday?

Do you know?

All I know about you recently is you're busy with finishing your work and tidying up your new house. After work you'll come home, dinner, then watch Lost in case of you don't feel too sleepy.

^^

This morning when I woke up, I decided I'll turn a new page in our relationship. Don't know yet it's going to good or bad.. But I don't wanna keep the old routine with you anymore. I won't allow my thoughts to keep me down anymore

Coz you're always keeping me waiting, anticipating

My own your own

"I can handle it myself, mind your own business"

Isn't it like what we're trying to tell each other?

I've been feeling worried about our relationship these few days. It's like, when we see each other, we're a very in-love couple. But when you're home, I'm home, we're no more than just Friends.

Have you ever spent time to think about it, the usual conversation when I don't see you. It's gonna be "Hey, what're you doing? I'm doing....what're you doing? Just finished dinner. Uhm, so what's up today? Nothing much. I'm feeling sleepy. So go to sleep early, I'm going to bed now. Goodnite babe :X"

That's it right?

I'm sorry for not usually telling you about my troubles. Each time I wanna tell you, sadly it doesn't come up when you really have time to listen to me, or you'll reply it about 2-3 hours later. I can wait for you, but my troubles cannot. It comes then It goes. And somehow now I'm getting used to living my daily life without your help. And I think so do you

We're in love, yep maybe, but we'll have to wait for such a long time ahead to know what sharing happiness and sorrow is

I hope till now we still can hold the love-string tight. I hope so...

I think if there's something wrong between us, it is We're 2 independent ppl trying to stick in one relationship

:D ok have fun with your day

Who?

Who's gonna worry when I'm sick, then still ask how I am doing a few days after?

Who's gonna say "Are you ok? Are you ok?" when I say something ain't right is happening to me?

Who's gonna always be punctual, wait for me, open the door for me, because he knows that I hate waiting and he understands girls love all the little things like that?

Who's gonna suddenly appear in front of me to let me know that he's tired and he needs me to listen to him?

Who's gonna tell me how everything has been thru to him after a long day, let me be his shoulder each time he feels the world is falling down for him, and don't hesitate to let me know what he's thinking inside?

Who's gonna be willing to share with me all of his happiness and his sorrows as well as he's willing to listen to mine?

Who's gonna text me to say goodmorning and wish me a sweet dream every night before he goes to bed and it's all because he wants to say it and he really means it?

Who's gonna drink with me when I say "I need a drink" then he won't ask anything but just sitting quietly beside me then take me home safely?

Who's gonna ask me to go out to drink with him and say "hey can you be a guy today then take me home if I'm drunk?"

Who's gonna use everything which I buy for him though it ain't really fit him? Gonna eat everything that I cook then pretending that nobody would be better than me?

Who's gonna take me home when I call "Pls, can you come and take me home now?"

Who's gonna know me better than I know myself? from littlest things to biggest things?

Who's gonna always keep his promises, keep his words everytime when he says "I will..." ?

Who's gonna proudly introduce me to his friends and his family, holding my hand so tight coz he understands I might be nervous?

Who's gonna remember all the special days, who's gonna buy me a rose because of no reason, who's gonna email me just to say "hey, whatcha doing? I'm bored, that's all, have a nice day :D"?

Who's gonna make me laugh when I'm upset? Who's gonna give me tissue to dry my tears? Who's gonna hold me tight when I cry? Who's not gonna feel hesitate to say sorry when he did smt that might hurt me?

Who's gonna catch me when I fall?

Who's gonna love me because he loves me and he just can't explain why?
...


Do we have answers for all of these questions now?

:)



"are you somewhere feeling lonely or is someone loving you?"

Saturday - Stormy day

Stormy weekend, it's been raining so hard outside

Just back from my bf's new house. I met Bittat today, I think she did miss me a lot :x Thank God she seems to really get along

I love my bf's room. It's really cute with stars and moon up over, on the ceiling

I watched Eclipse today, kinda good movie compare with the 2nd chapter New Moon, Eclipse is better

Tmr it's gonna rain so hard ... God bless

Is it?

Có những chuyện có phải tồn tại chỉ là thói quen mà thôi?

.......

Need a change

I'm trying to disappear

I'm feeling like everything is so different now

Different ppl

Different thoughts

Different feelings

The weather is changing maybe that causes me sick, it's like I'm living in a dream when everything is so insecure and unsure

But well I still have work to finish today

I wanna go to work in an office this time, well still looking for a new job, maybe design, or about entertainment or communication might be good as well

I wanna be busy all the time

I need a change

In charge

Dinner at 9pm, just had.

Tmr we'll have to send our new dog Bít Tất back to her hometown bcoz she's too naughty :( and well nobody can't stand her biting all the time

...

I hate saying goodbye, whatever that kinda goodbye is

And I'm tired

Am I putting myself in charge in everything? I don't. But I'm just worried if I ask ppl to do smt for me, I won't be able to get what I supposed that I would. I need guarantee but usually I don't really trust ppl when they say "Ok, let me do it, I can do it"

I want everything to be Perfect , or at least must be close to perfection

I can't take 2 steps at the same time right? Now 1st I need to sell out all the clothes left. Then make a new portfolio.

That's it

After the trip

Tired was what I felt when I woke up this morning :))

Thôi rồi đi dậy học đây

Ngày hôm nay nhiều việc lắm :-s


*******

23:23

After a day, coming back from my bf's house. So his family is gonna move into the new house this weekend


New - Is what I have been feeling after 14days outta town

Everything is really ..new

I don't know

But it's like I forgot all the old days

No, it's not exactly what I'm feeling, but it's like everything has changed

And somehow my thoughts, it's changed as well

I'm feeling really weird about what I'm feeling. It's like I'm looking on with indifference with my feelings :)) I think "oh ok it's not a big deal" , then I feel fine with it, I give up fighting inside

...

Something's wrong??

I don't know

Who knows?

HOME, I'm home

After 2 weeks, now finally I can be home, sleeping on my own bed is the best feeling ever at this moment :P

Oh I miss my room

I miss every familiar faces in my family, grandma, my 2 dear moms, dad, Kim, her bf, my 2 lil dogs...

I miss all the pillows, all the teddy bears in my bed

I miss every corners

:))

lol , so how come I go abroad to continue my study?

Sapa was such a great experiment, esp when on a motorbike with my bf, going anywhere, feeling the wind on my chest

The 3rd day in Sapa

I'm going back to HN tmr, 4 days in Sapa has been goin thru. Gonna miss everything in here tho today it rained a lot.

It was supposed to be a good night today, but well we went out to have our dinner, stopped by a restaurant. Then now I don't know what's goin on. Maybe we're too tired. Maybe there's nothing to talk about anymore after a few days 24/24 seeing each other. Or maybe it's all becoz of me, each time I took that medicine, it got me feel so incomprehensible.. Excuse me for that dear

I wanna go out now to have some beer but kinda afraid of it's pretty late now

It's time to go home

...

The 2nd day in Sapa

It's the 2nd day in Sapa. We've just come back the room after having a motorbike riding to the villages of ethnic minority. Was such a...kinda dangerous experience. Last time when I came to Sapa, I didn't have a chance to taste Sapa this way :P anyway maybe it's better because I've got my bf here with me.

Now we came back, bought some snacks and enjoy the movie Lost. Then we'll go out to have dinner with my friends

I feel so good

I reallt do

The 1st day in Sapa

So I came back and here I am in Sapa again with my bf, Dat and his ...well bf :D . The train was good. Now I'm not afraid of traveling by train anymore

There's only one word to describe the weather in here right now: Beautiful. So I'm hoping the weather is cooler today for ppl in HN...

And it's happy to be back to my bf's arms again (he's in the bathroom now) :D

I don't know but I'm feeling so fine. After 10days really tired in HCMC.

Wednesday - last day in HCMC and Happy Bday baby

Happy Bday baby, I love you, that's all I can tell you right now.. What do you wish for your bday baby? :)

Last day in HCMC, so tmr I'm going to be home :X Haiz how much I miss everything in HN. I'm becoming so tan now :( shiet

I hope the flight wouldn't delay so then I could be home on time coz we're going to Sapa in the evening.

Last day in HCMC, last trouble has just been saved, thank God

And I'm exhausted. I'm feeling lonely and feeling so incomprehensible

Anyway the pink girl is coming back into town. So then I can think Pink again

Last but not least, today is our 20months aniversary :x . So happy monthsary baby :)

Xoxo

Tuesday - 06/07/2010

I just wanna be home

I feel tired

I feel stuck

I miss you. But do you?

Well what you just said sounds like an order. I need you to encourage me, I need you to comfort me, or maybe this's too much that I shouldn't have asked...

Well then I'll show you that I can do it, without your support

Monday - 05/07/2010

Hết ngày thứ 6 ở SG

Hôm nay thì thật sự là cảm thấy stuck vì công việc :)) Ôi chao là tắc là tắc, mệt mỏi là mệt mỏi...

Suy nghĩ

Trằn trọc

Quay bên này xoay bên kia

All over again

Hôm nay đi sang nhà bà trẻ của Kun ăn cơm trưa. Hóa ra bà trẻ của Kun lại là bạn thân của bác Điệp nhà mình :)) Thật là the world is so small

Mình đang hi vọng lắm là sẽ đc về nhà đúng giờ, chuyến bay đừng có bị trễ

God bless...

Hôm nay đã bớt nhớ nhà hơn hôm qua

Sunday - 04/07/2010

Ngày thứ 5 ở HCMC

Cảm giác bắt đầu quen quen

Quen với những con đường nắng gắt từ chỗ ở ra chỗ cần làm. Đường Nguyễn thị Minh Khai, cầu Thị Nghè, đường Nguyễn Đình chiểu, CMT8, Võ Văn Tần, ngã tư Hàng Xanh...

Quen với việc đi ngủ lúc 2-3am, dậy lúc 6am, đi làm rồi về ngủ tiếp :))

Quen với con mèo sóc, giờ bik cách nhốt nó vào để nó khỏi cắn

Quen với cái xe máy bò, đi như con rùa, tốn xăng kinh khủng, nhưng còn hơn là đi taxi thì chak hết tiền

Quen với việc ăn sáng và trưa vào lúc 10am, tối đi ăn tối từ 6pm

Quen với việc nhà tắm không có nước nóng, ngủ không có đệm, cả ngày không sống với cái điều hòa

Quen với việc không facebook liên tục

Quen với việc không có mẹ gọi ăn cơm, bố giục ăn cơm, em chở đi ăn vặt

...

Nhưng thật ra là mình nhớ nhà lắm, nhớ bố mẹ, nhớ Kim, nhớ mẹ Mỹ, nhớ bà, nhớ Piper

Em nhớ anh lắm ...

Sao giờ, nếu phải sống như thế này hàng năm?

Ôi cái ngân quĩ, tiền với bạc đau đầu quá

Saturday - 03/07/2010

Hết ngày thứ 7 cuối tuần

Hôm nay định đi bar mà cuối cùng hông đi nữa do ảnh hưởng nặng nề của việc bị cướp hụt hôm qua nên giờ mình vẫn sợ. Đi đường gặp ai đeo khẩu trang rồi đi sát sát là mình giật mình :))

Nhưng rồi sẽ quen...

Cứ tối tối là thấy nhớ nhà điên đảo. nhớ cái giường đầy gối của mình...

Nhưng rồi sẽ hết cảm giác nhớ này...

Cviec cũng có vẻ có tí hi vọng hơn mấy hôm trước, nhưng chưa bik ntn :D Đại loại là ổn ổn nhưng chẳng thực sự là ổn lắm. Mình đau đầu phết :))

Có nên chuyển vô Nam sinh sống và làm việc hay không? Mình được cái thời gian đầu thì chưa quen với nếp sống ở nơi này, nhưng sau chắc là sẽ quen...

Có ai ở nhà nhớ tui hông :((

Vừa đi coi đá bóng về, vui phết :P cũng hò hét như đúng rồi. Nhưng đội mình thích hơn đã thua 4-0. Nhạt quá :-j

Ngủ đi nào, sắp xong việc và về nhà rồi

Friday 2/7/10 - Ngày thứ 3 ở HCMC

Hôm nay là hết ngày thứ 3 ở HCMC, mình đã trải qua một vài chuyện rất khác lạ

Mình nhớ nhà điên đảo, chẳng hiểu, hi vọng mai sẽ chẳng nhớ nhung chi nữa

Được đi ăn khuya, mà trong này gọi là đi ăn nhậu. Có mấy anh bạn của Quyên, hát hay đàn giỏi hết bài này tới bài khác. Lần đầu tiên được ngồi giữa một quán bia, và nghe hát guitar, chứ không phải bên cái lò sưởi bập bùng giống trước . Thú vui tao nhã vãi chưởng :))

Trên đường về nhà, mình và Kun suýt bị cướp bởi 1 thằng bịt mặt. Nói là không sao mà giờ mình đang run lắm đây. Đường về nhà đấy quá tối, thằng đấy may mà nó đi 1 mình, và may là mình với Kun thì hét quá to. Chỉ sợ nhất lúc nó quay đầu xe lại, tưởng nó anh dũng phi cả xe vào 2 con thì chak giờ này thôi xong fim rồi

Có tí sợ

:))

Mình nhớ mẹ quá, nhớ Kim quá... Nếu Kim ở đây chak là sẽ chửi 1 bài cái thằng mất dạy đó.

Mie, mình muốn khóc quá :)) Giờ này mọi người ở nhà chak ngủ cả rồi

Thôi mình cũng đi ngủ, mai còn nhiều việc phải làm ...

Nhớ nhà

Nhớ nhà quá

SG ngày thứ 3

Nhớ nhà

Bị lo lắng vì business, nên mình cũng cứ lơ đãng kiểu gì đấy, chẳng thấy thik SG nữa

:))

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