3rd checking

I got the 3rd checking today :D It was good thank God, but gotta take another checking next week

I'm feeling good, but sometimes get pissed without knowing why. And I always think purple :-<

Haiz I really wanna go shopping, I wanna go to Bankok or Singapore :(( Sale off season is everywhere.

I've been learning how to save money . But it's pretty hard . After getting married, I need to learn to get some back-up plans, coz no one knows about what tomorrow brings right?

So try to save some money :D

But I've been spending too much on new clothes and moisture skin cream. I wanna be beautiful no matter what happens :p

Ok get some sleep now, mama's lunch was so good.

Love

Hal
xoxo

Difficult period of time

I know I'm in one of the hardest period of time in my life. I know it must be difficult and tough.

But I don't expect this kinda tough anyway

I think I'm pretty good at controlling myself and solving my own problems. But now it ain't true anymore. I'm so easy to be angry and to be broken and to cry.

I know this's not right. I know me-being angry-though ppl already say sorry is not right. But I can't handle myself anymore.

I stayed up until 4am last night. And I cried without knowing why.

And I'm sad when I look at my phone list, I don't know whom to call. I don't know whom I can talk to. I don't know whether if my friends can understand me or not. I'm scared to be this kinda lonely

I know everything is gonna be over soon. But until that day, how can I survive healthily and how can I be who I wanna be? I hate seeing me relying everyone

God please help me :x I am waiting for the sun in me get back

Love

Hal

xoxo