Difficult period of time

I know I'm in one of the hardest period of time in my life. I know it must be difficult and tough.

But I don't expect this kinda tough anyway

I think I'm pretty good at controlling myself and solving my own problems. But now it ain't true anymore. I'm so easy to be angry and to be broken and to cry.

I know this's not right. I know me-being angry-though ppl already say sorry is not right. But I can't handle myself anymore.

I stayed up until 4am last night. And I cried without knowing why.

And I'm sad when I look at my phone list, I don't know whom to call. I don't know whom I can talk to. I don't know whether if my friends can understand me or not. I'm scared to be this kinda lonely

I know everything is gonna be over soon. But until that day, how can I survive healthily and how can I be who I wanna be? I hate seeing me relying everyone

God please help me :x I am waiting for the sun in me get back

Love

Hal

xoxo