I'm scared of October

I'm scared of October

I just looked around my diary last year. October was fulled in tears and hopeless

I'm scared. I'm really scared

I still remember all the tears. All the feelings. All the sadness

I still remember everything. Your voice. Your lies.

I still remember every raindrops.

I don't know how. I don't know when. It will be over

I love you :) I really do. But I'm scared it will happen again. Coz somehow I always think it'll happen again

Tell me what do I have to do now?

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