what if?

What about today?

8am mommie woke me up by saying "lazy kitten, wake up" then she started to sing loudly a no named song :))

I went to "tắm nắng" with her. We talked a lot :)) and she just asked me "do you remember the fairy tale I used to read for you when you were just a little girl" :)) mommie, she always treats me as if I were a baby. And she couldn't stop talking about papa :)) how did they meet, what did papa usually do for mom :)) . She also complained about the flowers around the lake, commented that flowers looked so horrible today =)) , it might be caused by the rain yesterday

Then on the way home, she even bought me a supa big bread :)) . How much I cherish these moments, I will capture it in my heart :)

Then I back home, tried to be genius again :)) then I made a pretty good videoclip for our X-Factor company :D lol the whole class was so interested in it :X

And coming back home, with the news that mommie wanted me to go to NZ coz she watched a studying-abroad-program which mentioned of DAC - a fashion design college in NZ. I dunno... if I could go, that means I'd not have to split up w/t my babe Tieu :X

But why am I so so tired now? I couldn't keep smiling anymore. So contradictory ! I know from deep down inside mommie doesn't wanna let me go... I've always known it, she always tries to protect me, must say overprotect me. In my parents' mind, I'm just 17 :)) I knew that. Mommie even doesn't want to give me chance to prove that I've been growing up. She's afraid life would hurt me so bad. But mom, you don't ever understand that I've been sufferable, I'm pretty good at suffering :)

I'm tired, I'm sorry for being so tired like this :)

There's something driving me so crazy