Tired so...

Today was the 1st time I felt tired of being a fashion designer, tired of my work, tired of fabrics, tired of sewing machine sounds, tired of sketches, tired of colors.......tired inside and tired outside

I'm just wondering why I am always the one who have to take responsiblility for everything in many circumstances even it wasn't my fault?

Or maybe it was all really my fault :))

ok ok if it was absolutely my fault je suis desolee...ppl just make mistakes every coz we're only human right?


I did wait for you to call, coz I thought you said you'd call me. I waited and I thought as usual you might be busy so I just worked and kept waiting. Until I thought that maybe business made you forget, so I asked you and I was [...] when you told me you were waiting for my sms :))

Sorry once again it was my fault for misunderstanding your words. When I told you I was waiting for your call, I just meant it, I didn't say those words to blame you or to mean something else

You know what, when I'm almost to surrender, I just want you to wait for me, pull me back, please just pull me back and hold me in your arms then everything's gonna be really ok to me. But I guess you will never understand that, you never will :') (If man can understand that rule, so maybe there'll be less heart broken everday ?)

I've learnt one thing, when I feel that you hurt me , it doesn't mean that you don't love me or care about me. Just simply you didn't know that you hurt me, unintentionally :') And each time when I wanna be closer to you, Unintention, it will push me away from you, even further than the closer distance we've just created in our relationship

I'm so brave, I'm so confident, yes I'm so independent but for God's sake I'm only a girl as well. When a girl's in love, whoever she is in this life, she'll come back to her female instinct. That means she'll turn to be sensitive, that means she'll turn to be complicated and inconsistent and inconsolable and....she'll only follow her heart even though her mind is always so strong

Sometimes I'm stress in my feelings. And the next day, I'll pretend that nothing in the world could ever get me down under the morning light.....

Looking back, I'm really good at comforting myself , be optimistic always is the key to everything :X