why am I crying like this :))


why


why

I can't cry now, this's a really tough time for me, I have to be strong, I still have to do a lot of things to finish, I still have to encourage myself and ppl around me. If I break down, then everything will be so bad... pls god, help me please stop me from crying. I can't let my mom see me crying like this though I just want mom to hold me tight and I can cry but won't let her have to worry about me
I wish my health is gonna be better, won't have to take medicine anymore, the medicine makes me so dizzy and coughing all the night long

it's really difficult for me

it's so sad to realize the only good thing that I can do for someone I love is disappear

I don't wanna be that bad , I don't want gosh I swear I don't wanna be that bad

but I have no choice right? yes my prob is I don't know how to let ppl know that I love them and I don't know how to make ppl love me :)) I follow my feelings and sometimes Feelings mean nothing and just not enough . I'm just not good enough for anyone I guess

It's not easy to forget everything

I knew that you'd tell me this, but why this time when I really need you most? when my life seems so hard to face...

I'm gonna miss you,

when you held me, when you teased me, when you said that you loved me, the star, the 19th, the beach... :)

goodnite anh