Love. Could. Hurt

I don't understand why

If you love me this much, so how could you hurt me so bad? All of your words, it was like just for someone who mean nothing to you.

I know I mean something to you

So please stop saying words that could hurt my feelings

...

Life is short

Why don't ppl learn the way to say "sorry", "thank you", "excuse me"...and why don't they just spend like a minute to talk about what's on their mind...

Peace

Hal

xoxo

Tue 29/11/11

When you fall in love with a broken hearted girl, please be patient :)

I am so thankful for everything happened. Because of that, I know how strong I could be, and I understand who's nice to me :)

People come and People go. That's the circle of life.


:)

I'm scared

Actually right now at this moment I do really need someone. A friend. Or even a stranger. Someone that I can lean on.

I know life is tough and it doesn't goes on your way all the time. Sometimes you have to make decision tho how hard it can be. But at the end, maybe it'll be good for you.

I'm trying to be tough

I'm trying to be more confident

I'm trying to make my own decision

I'm trying not to care

I'm trying to control my life in my own way

I'm trying to live my life because of me, not because of anyone else

Life is like a battle field. What doesn't kill you make you stronger.

I'm scared of being in that kinda situation over again. I am really scared

It's so painful when you wake up in the middle of the night realize that you're totally broken.

I did...

I did try to understand what actually I didn't have to.

I did try to forget about all the bad things and accept that you'll hurt me one day, again.

I did try to convince myself that I was just too sensitive, that I should give me and you another chance even it was totally unacceptable.

I did try to spend time till it ends.

Now I really don't understand why I have to do that to someone who ain't really respect me at all.

And for all of things happened between us, simply you just said "We're not meant for each other and we don't really understand each other"

:))

Tell me, what should I do? Shut up and listen to you all the time, or think that you're always right?

No thanks

Now if it ends, I don't have to blame myself anymore.

You hurt me once, you are the type of guy who will hurt me over and over again. And the prob is, you think that's fine and you never feel really sorry about it. That's the only thing I can be so damn sure

Thất vọng!

Có những người ko thèm bao giờ quan tâm tới suy nghĩ và ý kiến của người khác, cứ nói là người khác đương nhiên phải hiểu, phải thông cảm, và phải làm theo.

Có những người ỷ lại là sẽ luôn có người chờ đợi mình nên sống mà ko hề tôn trọng những người chờ đợi đấy

Có những người làm người khác đau nhưng không mở miệng ra nói được một câu "Xin lỗi"

Có những người nhờ vả người khác làm giúp mình chuyện gì nhưng cũng không mở miệng ra nói được một câu "Cám ơn"

Nhiều lúc chỉ là một lời nói

Nhiều lúc chỉ là một thái độ

Vậy mà... Có những người cứ nghĩ mình tài giỏi, làm được nhiều điều quan trọng, mà những cái cơ bản đấy còn ko biết

Thật là đáng thất vọng

Being damn busy

Been so busy these days. So I couldn't have any posts. Feeling so exhausted after trips. I don't even have a whole day to take some rest..

I just told everyone till the end of this year, I will not goong anywhere outta town anymore. I'm scared of flights, train, car, boats now =,=

The house is goin on its way pretty well

Bf was cute btw

But what my heart's feeling now is still a gap, it's not too big but it's still there

...

Peace

Hal

xoxo

When something is not going right...

Một vài dòng trước buổi chụp hình ngày mai

Thực sự là mình đã và đang cố gắng hết sức. Cố gắng để quay lại như trước kia. Cố gắng để quên những việc không vui và nhớ những việc khiến mình vui. Cố gắng để làm mới mọi chuyện. Cố gắng làm mọi việc để khiến mọi việc trở nên thuận lợi hơn.

Nhưng sao mình vẫn có cảm giác thiếu một cái gì đấy

Passion?

Hôm nay mình đã hỏi một người bạn "Tell me how do I know that I love someone?"

Bạn chỉ cười và nói với mình "It is when he's the reason to wake you up every morning"

Có lẽ bạn nói đúng bạn à :)

Bạn, mình chán phải suy nghĩ, mình chán phải mệt mỏi, mình chán phải khóc, mình chán phải chờ đợi, mình chán phải tự vực mình dậy, mình chán phải cố gắng, chán tất cả rồi...

Mình nên làm như thế nào đây?

Giúp mình với...

Happiness, where are you?

I'm feeling good

I'm feeling alright

But I don't know what can make me feel happy now

Hanging out with friends?

Dreaming?

Listening to my favourite songs?

Going shopping?

Helping ppl?

Going to the church?

Sleeping?

Waking? Gym? Being skinny?

No

:))

I'm looking forward to seeing Happiness which I once knew, come back to me again

:)

Miss me? No :))

Another lesson: Don't listen to what him say, watch what him does.

Kinda dissapointed

Or maybe I'm still a believe-r . Believe in what ppl say.

Anyway. Chill out. Relax. Too much stressful is not good for me now. My face skin is kinda allergic now. It turns to be red and so uncomfortable. I look so awful :((((((

Gosh

Saigon - Singapore

Last 5 days was so damn tired. I took the flight to HCMC at Sunday afternoon, then left to Singapore in the next morning. It was an emergency call. My bf's uncle got cancer and it was a kinda bad situation. I came to Singapore with my bf's mother, uncle and his wife.

12 hours staying in hospital a day. Everyone was worried, tired, exhausted.

But I felt good coz I could do something for my bf's family :)

I just got back yesterday late night. 11:30pm

I felt like my feet couldn't stand still anymore. I lost 2kg after 5 days. Phew!!

Thanks mom and dad for supporting me :)

5 days. I met my friend Hang again, she's like my sister.

5 days. I learnt some new lessons, about the cancer and about the relationships

5 days. I learnt how to control myself

5 days. 3 flights. I hate flying now :))

5 days. I found out what's currently in my heart now :)

Thanks for this trip

Peace

Hal

xoxo

9/11/11

Có một vài người dễ thương với mình kinh khủng íh

Làm mình yêu đời kinh khủng íh :P

Haiz mình cứ ước mãi mãi được như này

Hôm nay mình đi mua bánh kem tặng một vài người đã giúp đỡ mình trong thời gian vừa qua :p

Khổ thân Quang bị gãy tay :)) gãy tay mà còn cãi nhau với bồ, ngu chưa? =))

Mai đi thăm, yên tâm đồng chí :))

Ôi đi ngủ

Anh vẫn thế anh nhỉ. Nói được vài câu tử tế cũng dừng lại vì chán. Cãi nhau được vài câu cũng dừng lại vì chán. Đi với nhau được vài ngày nhìn mặt nhau hoài cũng chán

:))

Mình cũng chẳng hiểu nên làm gì ở đâu như nào với ai nữa

Nhưng mà, dù sao thì mình cũng sẽ làm những việc mà mình cảm thấy vui. Vậy là được ;)

Ngủ ngoan Hallie

Love

Yesterday was our anniversary

He came with flowers, then we went out for dinner and movie

I did have a wonderful evening :)

Simply just two of us. Laughing. Talking. Sharing. Like we used to

...

So what is it all about?

What am I supposed to do now?

:)

I was really happy anyway

Love is sweet if it is real Love.

(8/11/2011)

Today is 3 years since we've been together

Happy Anniversary :)

We're in a really hard time, but I just thought, my heart has been broken but it doesn't mean that cracks are everywhere, right? :)

I'm glad that you are still here today

I'm glad that we are giving our love another chance

I'm glad that till now I've got 3 years staying with a man that I love truly no matter what will happen tomorrow

:)

Smile

Love

Hallie

Concern

Dear Diary

It has been 10 days... But everytime I think about what happened, I just can't help but feeling angry and sad again

After 6 days going outta town, leaving this place behind, and he was still with me. But I can't feel complete again. Somehow, sometimes I did feel that he was really sorry for what he did, and he really still loved me a lot. So far there's a question in my mind all the time "Why did you do that to me?"

Can I allow myself to trust him again?? And how?

I can feel there are 2 voices in my mind now. One is telling me to give him and this love another chance, that I should trust him and I should forgive him. But another one is telling me that I should break up, that I was hurt once, it'll happen again. And these 2 thoughts are fighting so hard in me...

I'm really tired :)

What should I do now?

This pain

It's like a piece of my heart has gone.
And now I'm still wondering how to get it back.

Sometimes when unintentionally I think about what he did to me, it still hurts, a bit firstly then I move to be really depressed..

I wanna scream, I wanna be angry, I wanna throw everything away. But somehow there is something still pulling me back. Like the pieces of my heart which left saying : "don't let anyone see you in this situation coz they're gonna tell you it ain't worth a bit"

Dear, I'm still making excuse that you're worth the pain. But it aint so easy for me. 

I believe in my sense

It hurt me too when I gave the ring back to you

But yes I still need time to ensure if you're really trying to fight for this relationship like you promised you would.

And I need time to ensure whether we're the right one for each other or not, whether we can overcome everything or not and whether we are still in love with each other or not...

I believe in my sense and I believe that Time will give me the answer