Concern

Dear Diary

It has been 10 days... But everytime I think about what happened, I just can't help but feeling angry and sad again

After 6 days going outta town, leaving this place behind, and he was still with me. But I can't feel complete again. Somehow, sometimes I did feel that he was really sorry for what he did, and he really still loved me a lot. So far there's a question in my mind all the time "Why did you do that to me?"

Can I allow myself to trust him again?? And how?

I can feel there are 2 voices in my mind now. One is telling me to give him and this love another chance, that I should trust him and I should forgive him. But another one is telling me that I should break up, that I was hurt once, it'll happen again. And these 2 thoughts are fighting so hard in me...

I'm really tired :)

What should I do now?