Getting married.

So suddenly I'm gonna get married in April. Not September anymore

Suddenly. So I'm feeling so suddenly. Everything is so messy now tho actually we've finished lots of things

I'm feeling so weird. Like half of me can't wait for the big day. And there's still a half of me asking "What am I doing?"

I'm feeling so confused. I'm having doubts about everything, about everyone and about me as well

I really need someone to count on now. Someone I can talk to. Someone I can share my thoughts. Someone I can cry on the shoulder. Someone who won't say "Things are gonna be fine" :))

I dunno

I'm so half-of-something

What should I do? What should I feel?