Tuesday 28/02

Is it true that if you open your heart to ppl, they will open theirs to you too?

Such a busy day , from this place to that place

Haven't had any real meal today

Drinking too much water, all kind from wine to mineral, bitter to sweet things

Feb is going to end soon

Then March. Then April

Not many days left

Somehow I start to feel "family" now

Mệt!

Một ngày quá dài và mệt, mình chẳng muốn động tay chân đến bất kỳ cái gì nữa. Thậm chí bây giờ ngồi đây nhưng chẳng biết phone vứt ở đâu luôn, cũng chẳng muốn biết luôn

Cũng chỉ là đi ra đường với bạn bè

Cũng chỉ là làm việc bận rộn

Cũng chỉ là đi đến nhà thờ

Nhưng sao hôm nay mệt thế

Vừa cạo gió, bị cảm thôi rồi :(

Mình cảm thấy căng thẳng về mặt tinh thần còn đáng sợ gấp trăm lần căng thẳng về mặt thể xác.

Giờ phát hiện ra mình khá là xấu tính vì ko bao giờ có đủ kiên nhẫn

Cơ mà xin người, đừng bắt tôi đứng ở giữa bao giờ

Mệt xác

Thấy mệt mỏi quá đi mất thôi

Falling in love

Suddenly feeling like getting back to the past - when I was totally single

Been out with Kimmy my sister a lot. Junk food, shopping, super market, wandering out in the street :D

Been out with my friends. Drinking, chatting, cafe-ing, going to the cinema together

The summer is in Hanoi today :D The weather was so perfect to stay outdoor. So I skipped my gym and went to see "Man on the ledge" with my friends

I love this all kinda feelings.

Love it

Hal

xoxo

Not enough

Yes, maybe the reason why I can't ask anyone to stay for me, because simply I'm just not good enough

Not enough to make anyone want to stay

Not enough to make anyone want to love

And not enought to make anyone want to hold for a long time

I used to say I just want Happiness to stay with me a little longer

But actually it's never

Now I think one of the reasons is me.

It's so cold

There's always someone for someone. But what if you never find that someone?

:)

Would you?

If you knew you could never be the reason for someone to stay. Would you still love him?

I'm not trying to blame myself . But it's true that I've never been enough for anyone to stay

If someone tried to stay for me, then it means "too late"

...

Why it always happens to me?

Why?

Bad dreams again...

Another bad dreams again. I don't think I have enuf courage to go to sleep again. 3 days 3 stories and nothing was good. I could feel the tears in my eyes now and my heart is still beating so fast. 

I'm scared

I'm scared

I'm scared

I'm so scared

Last night in my dreams, 2 of the most important ppl in my life betrayed me. Left me. Simply. Easily. 

I can feel this pain so clearly

So clearly that I think everything is real

...

What's wrong with me?

Bad dreams again...

Another bad dreams again. I don't think I have enuf courage to go to sleep again. 3 days 3 stories and nothing was good. I could feel the tears in my eyes now and my heart is still beating so fast. 

I'm scared

I'm scared

I'm scared

I'm so scared

Last night in my dreams, 2 of the most important ppl in my life betrayed me. Left me. Simply. Easily. 

I can feel this pain so clearly

So clearly that I think everything is real

...

What's wrong with me?

Dreams...

There're some kinda dreams that make me wanna wake up asap

These last 2 days, I dunno why I had long dreams everytime I go to bed at night. Something very misterious. And it pulled my head and my heart down. I felt so tired everytime I wake up.

Some familiar face but I don't know exactly who

Some old stories but I don't know what it is

...

I'm pretty tired and I feel some kinda lost...

Sometimes it's just "not enough"...

Voila, au revoir

Losing my temper

I dunno why I'm feeling so easy to get angry these few days. So easy to lose my temper

Haiz

Maybe I'm just being so stressful

:(

I just keep things simple

I just wanna be me

And I just wanna have time for my husband

But somehow it's not that simple anyway

:((

OMG It's just A Wedding

Busy day

A busy day again

Taking care of Edward

Working

Gym then lunch with my hubby

Then we went to see our wedding planner to discuss about what we like. Then met the hotel party manager

Then he had to go outta town for business

I came home to work

And went out to see my friends :X

Long long time no see, we had a good time studying Eng together. And now it was still that feeling when we met again

I'm happy

Goodnite dear

Love

Hal

xoxo

My family's wedding party for me

So I got married Yesterday

...

Kidding :)) But it was a half of my wedding.

Yesterday my family had a party to invite our relatives and friends to come and tell them that I'm gonna get married in Apr

It was fine at the end

And I'm happy that at least now I can tell grandma that "Grandma, I'm married". Then she won't have to worry about me anymore :)

If it is Getting Married. Then I'd feel weird.

Coz actually I don't feel any nervous like all the bride does before her wedding

:))

Anyway it still feels good

And now I'm still in my room :P

Love

Hal

xoxo

And I'm happy bcoz my Husband can get along with my family :x

Valentine

It's still a weird feeling when I introduce him now as "My husband" :P

Lol

Valentine's day

Yesterday we went to the Angelina, for dinner. It was a bit surprise that he did order a table for us :X Thanks honey. And traditional, he got me chocolate. Then after that, we went to a club and had fun with my friends

I dunno

But I love this feeling

I love to have my own family. My husband will take me out for dinner, movie, cafe with friends

:)

Love you

Hal

xoxo

Life.

Người hạnh phúc là người biết tìm hạnh phúc ở trong chính những việc mình làm

Người khôn ngoan là người biết cách tránh những việc có thể gây tổn thương đến bản thân mình và cả những người xung quanh

Có một vấn đề là mình là đứa cứ thẳng tuồn tuột ra. Xấu bảo xấu. Đẹp bảo đẹp. Nếu bất khả kháng ko thể nói xấu ko thể nói đẹp, thì mình giữ im lặng. Chứ ko bao giờ bắt mình nói Xấu là Đẹp, Đẹp là Xấu được

:))

Tính bướng từ bé. Có bị quát bị đau đến mấy nhưng ít khi khóc trước mặt nhiều người

Tính bướng từ bé. Lúc nào cũng thích ý kiến đặt câu hỏi cho người khác và phải tìm câu trả lời cho tới cùng, không thì khó chịu lắm.

Càng ngày mối quan hệ xã hội càng mở rộng. Mình biết nếu giữ tính như thế này, thì khó mà vừa lòng được tất cả mọi người

Thế nên mình sẽ cố gắng tiết chế bản thân. Nhiều khi nhẫn nhịn đi một tí, thì ít ra có thể bảo toàn cho trái tim mình

Mẹ ơi. Thế mới biết mẹ lúc nào cũng đúng. Đúng là chỉ có cha mẹ mới chịu được tính cách con mình

:)

Cám ơn bố mẹ đã nuôi con khôn lớn, và để cho con được sống 26 năm làm mọi việc theo ý con, được tôn trọng và được quyền quyết định tất cả. Kể cả khi con sai, bố mẹ cũng không chê bai, mà để chính sai lầm giúp con tìm ra bài học cho bản thân mình

09/02/12

Ngày mai mình ăn hỏi

Đến giờ chả có cảm giác hồi hộp gì, chỉ buồn ngủ và mệt thôi. Busy suốt từ sáng tới giờ

Ước ngày mai qua nhanh để lại thấy mọi thứ bình thường

Nhưng có một vài việc sẽ khác, sẽ chẳng bình thường như bình thường nữa

Mình thấy sợ nhiều hơn là hồi hộp

Vậy là Hallie sắp kết hôn, còn hơn 2 tháng nữa là chính thức đến nhà thờ, và nói "Yes I do"

Thời gian sao mà trôi nhanh vậy

...

Ngủ ngoan Hallie

xoxo

Monday 06/2/12

I just wanna skip this place for a little while, going to somewhere and leaving everything behind for a little while

I'm tired of fighting everything alone

I'm tired of seeing ppl misunderstanding each other

I'm tired of seeing ppl unhappy

It's like everything about me is a burden now

Why ppl always mess things up then try to fix it

Even when they fix it, there's a gap still left

Oh lah, I wish I could be a real me now.

Anyway I think I've found the way to make me feel happy now

Love

Hal

xoxo

P/S : Romeo, take me somewhere we can be alone

Lonely

This's not the feeling of someone who's getting married

...

I'm feeling lonely

And I'm feeling insecured

...

I'm feeling cold

And I'm feeling like the world againts me

:p

Anyway I'm alive

Still ALIVE

Me - Myself - And I

...

Eternity

Everytime I listen to this song. My heart could feel peaceful a little bit. And I believe somehow there's someone still understand me :)


Close your eyes so you don't fear them
They don't need to see you cry
I can't promise I will heal you
But if you want to I will try

I'll sing this somber serenade
The past is done
We've been betrayed
It's true
Someone said the truth will out
I believe without a doubt, in you

You were there for summer dreaming
And you gave me what I need
And I hope you find your freedom
For eternity...
For eternity

Yesterday when you were walking
We talked about your mum and dad
What they did that made you happy
What they did that made you sad
We sat and watched the sun go down
Picked a star before we lost the moon
Youth is wasted on the young
Before you know it's come and gone to soon

You were there for summer dreaming
And you gave me what I need
And I hope you find your freedom
For eternity...
For eternity

For eternity
I'll sing this somber serenade
The past is done
We've been betrayed
It's true
Youth is wasted on the young
Before you know it's come and gone to soon

You were there for summer dreaming
And you are a friend indeed
And I hope you find your freedom
For eternity

You were there for summer dreaming
And you are a friend indeed
And I know you'll find your freedom
Eventually
For eternity
For eternity

Ước mơ & Hiện thực

Đau bụng suốt người cứ lơ tơ mơ là lờ tờ mờ

Mình nghĩ mình là người dễ cho qua mọi việc, kể cả việc cho qua những người làm tổn thương mình

Nhưng có những nỗi đau cứ ở lại mãi, thỉnh thoảng lại xuất hiện và làm mình mất hết ý chí. Mình chẳng trách những người đã khiến mình đau buồn, mình coi những nỗi đau đấy như một bài học để mà rút kinh nghiệm, tránh để có lần sau

Tại sao khi ghét nhau người ta lại cứ phải nói cho bõ tức, chẳng cần biết lúc đó bản thân là sai hay đúng?

Tại sao khi hết ghét nhau rồi, người ta cũng phải tự bào chữa cho bản thân mình một vài câu rồi sau đấy mới chịu nhận ai sai ai ko sai?

Từ nhỏ bố mình luôn nhắc nhở "Yêu thương người khác như yêu bản thân mình" . Mình ko làm được như vậy, nhưng về cơ bản lục lại trong trí nhớ, thì mình chẳng ghét ai cả, chỉ là ko thích thì tránh xa ra. Vậy thôi.

Mình nên làm gì nhỉ?

:)

Chỉ vì một hành động nhỏ, bao nhiêu cố gắng xây dựng dường như tan biến hết

Chả ai chịu nhìn nhận vấn đề theo khía cạnh khác. Ai cũng có cái tôi to như cái đình.

Rốt cuộc thì mình cũng hiểu

Mình ước có được một đám cưới hạnh phúc. Tất cả mọi người đều thấy hạnh phúc và vui cho mình. Ước mơ đấy có gì to lớn quá ko?...

I'm sorry parents

I'm crying for myself

I don't want anyone to see me like this

Somehow I feel sorry for putting my family in this situation

I am sorry daddy. I am sorry mommy. I am sorry.

I know I haven't been quite a good daughter. But I won't let you have to be sad becoz of me.

Deep down inside I know I still love you a lot. But it did hurt me like there's nothing can compare.

U just pushed me away, but u didnt even know :)

I am tired...

I've never felt this kinda sorrow before

It's pulling me down and I'm stuck. I can't talk to anyone. Actually I don't know anyone that I can talk to about this problem

I wish there were someone who'd hold me now, and tell me that things will be fine at the end

I just wanna go to sleep, and when I wake up, I'll have a lucid decision.

:)

I'm so weak

I hate it when unintentionally, he seperates us into 2 sides. And I don't really know where to go.

I thought we're supposed to be in a team :) And together we will work things out.

I don't have any rights to judge anyone. So I hope ppl won't judge each other just by an action.

... Your heart just breaks, that's all. But you can't judge, or point fingers. You just have to be lucky enough to find someone who appreciates you

Dear God

Please God, help me to have enough courage to overcome every troubles of my life.

Please help me to have enough patience

Please help me to have enough long suffering

Please help me to think pink when I'm in the dark

Please help me to have enough Love everytime ppl try to pull me down

Please help me to keep up my smile all the time

Please help me to be strong enough to protect myself

God, please help me

I'm scared

...

It feels good

It feels good when there's someone who's ready to have fun and even get drunk with u

It feels good when there's someone who hugges u tight when you can't stand still on ur own feet

It feels good when there'a someone who always tries to protect u when u're drunk

It feels good when there's someone who's willing to drink and laugh with you

It feels good when there's someone who says "I could be the shoulder"

It feels good when there's someone who texts you and tells you to go to sleep

I felt good today

At least pretty gooodddd

Love u guys

Hal

xoxo