Doing things. All alone

Actually.

I hate doing things on my own. Supermarket, shopping, eating, coffee-ing, hanging around....

I even hate myself when I pretend to be fine if ppl ask me "are you ok with that?"

I don't wanna disturb anyone. But sometimes I just wanna say out loud that "can you help me?"

But then thinking after "can you help me" or "can you go with me", I'll definitely feel guilty. I usually talk to myself : "I can do it, it's not a big deal doing things alone"

So complicated :))

Sometimes hearing ppl say "I'll get whatever you want, don't be upset. What you want? Tell me" , just feel so damn good :p

Tomorrow my uncle will be back from Canada. He usually gets back to visit us once a year.

It's raining today :( And maybe that's why I feel this way :-<

Should I write down my Xmas wishlist this year? Or maybe I'm too old to dream about something and wait for mr. Santa to come? :))

Love

Hal

xoxo