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Noel làm một cái family party với bố mẹ mình, ăn uống đến đêm khuya. Cũng may Noel trời hông có rét lắm, mát mát thôi.

Tổng kết là ax chẳng thèm tặng quà cho mình :(( Còn món quà khác thì tới tận mấy hôm trước mới nhận được

Mấy hôm nay Hanoi lạnh kinh khủng. Trời lại còn mưa một chút xíu. Lạnh muốn rụng tai luôn. Ax theo thông lệ LẠI đi công tác ở Lào Cai. Mai mới về. Cứ thỉnh thoảng lại đi. Hồi xưa kêu sẽ hông bao giờ yêu ai hay đi xa, thế mà loằng ngoằng nào giờ kết hôn với một ông chuyên đi xa :-< Khổ lắm cơ. Người ta bảo ở đâu quen đấy, mình pregnant thế này cứ phải chuyển chỗ ở xoành xoạch cũng mệt. Về nhà bố mẹ tự nhiên lại nhớ cái gối quen thuộc ở nhà riêng :p

Trời lạnh, hôm qua lại chả ngủ nổi. Em bé chơi trò đánh đu trong bụng mình, làm mommy 4am mới chợp mắt được chút xíu thì lại dậy vì hôm nay nhiều việc. Chiều cũng chả kịp nghỉ tí nào lại phải đi khám bác sỹ định kỳ.

Cám ơn bố mẹ :x vì đã luôn giúp con. Chỉ có bố mẹ mới là người thông cảm cho con nhất thôi

Sắp sinh rồi, cứ thấy sợ hãi. Nhiều lúc băn khoăn chẳng hiểu mình có vượt được qua nữa không. Em bé nếu yêu mommy thì đừng làm mommy đau nhiều nhé :)

LOVE

Hal

xoxo

Xmas is coming into town????

4 days before Xmas

And tomorrow is Edward's 1st bday :D time flies so quickly. Can't believe it's been a year since that "horrible" day :p

And tomorrow is "the end of the day" as well lol.

I don't feel Xmas this year, not a bit, tho I got my own Xmas tree this year. Maybe I should buy me something to make me feel like Santa is coming into town :))

My hubby is really busy this time. He goes outta town for business 3 days a week. And I have to get back home alone. I usually feel lonely when I'm on my way home, feel desperate :)) But right when I get home, tho being alone, I just feel...fine. I even enjoy it :p Enjoy the silence myself. And feel alright completely, I don't need anyone to comfort me at night :p So damn crazy duh?

I don't have much time left till my due date... I'm scared and nervous and excited as well. Can I do it? Can I? God please help me, give me strength to overcome this biggest moment of my life :)

Xmas Xmas Xmas, love me

Hal

xoxo

Doing things. All alone

Actually.

I hate doing things on my own. Supermarket, shopping, eating, coffee-ing, hanging around....

I even hate myself when I pretend to be fine if ppl ask me "are you ok with that?"

I don't wanna disturb anyone. But sometimes I just wanna say out loud that "can you help me?"

But then thinking after "can you help me" or "can you go with me", I'll definitely feel guilty. I usually talk to myself : "I can do it, it's not a big deal doing things alone"

So complicated :))

Sometimes hearing ppl say "I'll get whatever you want, don't be upset. What you want? Tell me" , just feel so damn good :p

Tomorrow my uncle will be back from Canada. He usually gets back to visit us once a year.

It's raining today :( And maybe that's why I feel this way :-<

Should I write down my Xmas wishlist this year? Or maybe I'm too old to dream about something and wait for mr. Santa to come? :))

Love

Hal

xoxo

25/12/2012 - One month before Xmas

One month before Xmas.

Since when I love counting down the day till Xmas?.... I think no matter where I am, how old I am, I still love Xmas with all my heart and soul

Listening to old Xmas songs, drinking a cup of hot tea, in a cozy room. Happiness is simple and it's here.

Hopefully one day I will have a chance to see Xmas in Paris, catching snow in my hands :p

Brrr I'm still dreaming of a white Xmas dear

I couldn't sleep well last night. My baby is growing so fast these days so sometimes he's really naughty and moving a lot inside of me. I can't deny that I love feeling him inside of me, but not at 2 in the morning =,=

I'm so looking forward to my due date. And btw I'm so scared of it too :p

Ppl said it's gonna be so damn hurt. I know. I've always prepared for that. But I'm scared :(((((((( Tho I know my hubby will be there to hold my hand, but I'm still so scared :((

God bless :x

Baby Mommy love you :)

Hal

xoxo

Mood swing

Từng tuổi này vẫn hỉnh thoảng bị những cái cơn mood swing thật đáng ghét

Ai động chạm gì cũng muốn chảy nước mắt

Hôm nay Kim với Ed về thăm nhà chồng. Trời thì xầm xì chuyển rét.

Một mình mình đi taxi về nhà. Giữa trưa

Tự dưng cũng thấy buồn phiền.

Empty. Alone

haizzz

Chả hiểu ra sao nữa. Cứ đổ tại là hôm nay 23 đi cho lành

Ôi bik bao giờ mới thật sự là control được bản thân mình??

Time changes everything

Relationships end because once the person has you, they stop doing the things that took to get you...

I can't deny that Time is always a big matter. It changes people, it changes everything, the smallest to the biggest things. So don't ever think that you can win Time. Nothing can overcome it.

My heart is too sensitive. That's my biggest weakness that drives me crazy sometimes.

Sometimes I feel lost and don't know whom I can rely on...

A friend of mine said I see things in pink all the time, so when things turn to be grey, I tend to not look at the reality. I tend to keep it inside and try to forget it.

I'm scared, Gosh I'm scared :))

Trust is easy to get and once it's gone, like paper that crumpled, it can't be back perfect again

All I still need to learn everyday is how to keep my heart safe, by my own self

You pissed me off

There will always be a "lie" in Believe
An "over" in Lover
An "end" in Friends
An "us" in Trust
and an "If" in Life


I was too tired yesterday. Too tired to even stand on my own feet after working hours. And I felt like I couldn't breath

I thought maybe I'd cook something simple for dinner. But then when you texted me and said you were tired, I told myself to get up and should go and do something better for you.

I swear all I thought was about You

I swear that no matter what I do and no matter where I go and whoever I'm with, I always think about you and worry about you the most.

But do you?

I felt like a fool yesterday, waiting for you hopelessly to come to pick me a little earlier because I was too tired. I just wanted to go home and lie next to you, then things would be better

All about what you did was just give me a text saying that you'd be late, and you wouldn't care about what I asked.

So I'm wondering is it a shame for you to answer your wife's text while you're with people?

I never wanna bother you if you wanna have time hanging out and having fun, without me. Coz we both need our own space sometimes. But pls think of me a little, like a few seconds. That's all. I don't ask for more

You made me feel like I couldn't rely on you, because you'd not come to rescue me no matter how I beg

:)

Anyway, I don't hate you. I hate myself for not trusting you completely 100%.

8.11.12 - Happy anniversary

It's been 4 years since we met :) 8.11.2012 today is our anniversary

4 years with laughs and tears

4 years with sharing and misunderstanding

4 years with happiness and sorrow

But I'm happy to be with you today

To see you every morning when I wake up

To hold you every night before I go to sleep

I hate to remember about what happened last year :) But it's been a year, and you've showed me how to love again...

I know there's still a long road ahead with many troubles... But as long as you hold my hand this tight. And as long as I can trust you this way. We can conquer everything, right?

I love you :x

Hal

Xoxo

Another bad dream...

Hóa ra điều khiến mình sợ hãi nhất vẫn là bị bỏ rơi

Cảm giác khi đang yêu thương một thứ gì đó, rồi bỗng nhiên tất cả biến thành mây khói... Thật đáng sợ...

Cứ mỗi lần quen với việc gì đấy, yêu một điều gì đấy, mình lại đâm ra sợ bị mất, điều mình yêu thương sẽ bỏ rơi mình...

Ám ảnh kinh khủng...

Lại vừa nằm mơ linh tinh. Hôm nay HN mưa bão, trời mưa suốt từ sáng đến giờ. U ám xám xịt đáng ghét ghê.

Nằm mơ giật mình tỉnh dậy, vội vã lấy phone nhắn tin như mọi lần... Hóa ra cũng chỉ là em nằm mơ thôi :P Hú hồn

Sợ

Sợ bị mất.

Sợ bị bỏ rơi

Thành ra nhiều khi sợ khi mình bắt đầu yêu...

Hôm nay em bé ngoan, nằm im ko quấy mama nhiều. Hôm trước đi khám bác sỹ, tiêm uốn ván mũi 2 xong xuôi rồi. Hóa ra tiêm cũng chẳng đau lắm, giờ mình chẳng sợ tiêm nữa :p

Ngày mai anh đi công tác. 2 ngày thôi. Nhưng mà ghét. Vì trời mưa. Vì đang có nhiều chương trình hay trên TV. Vì có người xoa lưng ôm mình mỗi tối. Vì có người chiều mình. Vì nhiều thứ.

 ...

Ghét mưa

Hal

xoxo

Life, oh life

The feeling of having a very tiny little people in your body is so amazing

My boy is so naughty :p he loves kicking his mommy. But I do love him, I love the feeling of waking up every morning and feeling him inside of me. Not many days left I will see him face to face. To kiss him, to hold him, to touch him, and to love him with all my heart and my soul

I'm at the 27 week now. I've gained around 5kg. And still there're some ppl doubting about me - pregnant. Even some salespeople at the baby shops :)) I don't feel to hard to be pregnant, except everyday after work and get home, I do feel exhausted, and just wanna lay down on my bed and don't have to care about cooking dinner, or chores anymore. But still I have to get up coz I hate seeing my house look dirty and messy. Sometimes it drives me crazy and crying without knowing why :p

My hubby he helps me a lot, but he's just a man, so he only helps when I ask him to :D And I know he's already had many troubles at work, so everytime I wanna skip cooking and go outside, thinking of him having a long day without a real meal, I don't feel tired of getting up anymore.

The weather is so lovely today. I will have a day out with my friends today :D Now let's go and enjoy

LOVE

Hal

xoxo