Ngày 27/6/13 - Đời không như mơ. Tình không như thơ...

Hôm nay Sushi được tròn 5 tháng tuổi. Cân nặng 9.8kg. Có vẻ khá nguy hiểm :))

Hôm qua mình đã khóc rất nhiều. Có cảm giác khóc mãi cũng không đủ để làm trôi đi cái cảm giác ngạt thở đấy. Ngạt thở vì tức giận, vì tủi thân, vì thất vọng

Có phải mình ngốc lắm không?

"Đời không như mơ. Tình không như thơ"... Vẫn biết là thế nhưng sao thấy đau đến thế? Vì bị nói dối? Hay vì thương chính bản thân mình?

I couldn't think you'd ever do that to me. I said I wish my 6th sense didn't work. I even lied to myself that it was not what I thought it was. But when I saw the text, I felt like everything good between us has gone. How could you do that to me while you kept telling me that you miss me and you love me? Then what if I didn't say anything? You would continue that story?

Now you told me that you know what's the limit. But I guess even you were lying to yourself...


What do I have to do now? What should I do? Pretend like nothing happened? Or walk away and leave everything behind?

I have my own rules. If you don't respect my rules. Then it means you totally don't respect me. Not at all.

Trust is like a paper. Once it's crumbled, it can't be perfect again...

You lost my trust. And I can't tell you how to get that back coz I even have no idea where it is now

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something has changed...

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???

Là do em khó hiểu?

Hay là anh thật sự không còn muốn tiếp tục hiểu nữa?

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It ain't a big deal anymore

I don't know

Am I on my way to become a cold emotionless person?

I dunno

Or maybe I am? Already?

I dunno


Maybe it’s a new period of time. But how strange the change from major to minor. And I have to face it, have to try

How? Who’s gonna help me if I don’t want anyone to help?

Crazy

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Photo day

Today was the photo day of Shopaholic. I've been working from 7am till now. Was really tired. We went to many places to take photos. Actually models weren't cool enough and things went wrong sometimes. But anyway it was pretty cool

I'm so tired now. My back it's been aching since the day I came back to Vietnam. Haizz dunno what's wrong.

I need some sleeps now =,=

Btw, is it just bcoz that I'm so fucking tired or is it something wrong happening?????

I'm feeling so confused

Rainy Sunday

Trời lại mưa rồi..



Outta Tet, let’s start a new beginning and enjoy a new adventure haha

I’m pretty tired I dunno what’s wrong with my breath sometimes I just can’t breath. When I come back from Thailand, I’ll have to go to gym again

I’m excited about the trip as well as worried about it. This’s the time for me to learn how to solve the Time and Money problem.

Dad just asked me yesterday “When will you leave?” – “This Thursday” – “What? Really?” :)) How cute is that. Dad is the one who always cares about my business, but this time he doesn’t pay attention a bit, so good sign coz maybe I’m grown up completely? Lol

I’ve also got some worries from other ppl :-w

Well, Kun, I do really trust her. I’m just worried that she ain’t really as tough as Tieu :D. But hey nothing to worry about, I’m going, that’s all xoxo

Only 5 days and things will change or nothing will change? I’m really scared of my 6th sense coz I think there’s smt wrong. Something might be wrong or I am the one who’s wrong with my sense of feeling?

Alright have a nice Sunday Hallie

2 days b4 Tet

Hôm nay đi ăn tất niên với mọi người

Valentine, tặng anh quà rồi, sẽ chẳng gặp rồi…

Chẹp

Có vẻ như anh cũng chẳng quan tâm gì cho lắm tới cái gọi là Valentine

Mình thấy hơi bị hẫng 1 xí :D

Chỉ 1 năm thôi mà mọi chuyện nó đã khác thế này rồi

Mình đang cảm thấy cái gì thế này

Khó hiểu quá

Wed, 6th Jan 2010 (7th)

It's getting more and more complicated and incomprehensible and dilemma and conservatory

I think I need a place to hide myself now

I wanna be alone for a while

:))

Tuesday 05 Jan 2009 (the 6th)

Yep how can I fight with something that I can't see?

:)))))

I'm losing grip, it is wat happening :))

It drives me crazy, makes me feel so tired, and I can't deny that it hurts me.. :)))

Lah lah lah

What should I do?

Monday 4Jan 2009

I got my tattoo today :x 3 stars around the moon, kinda cool lah, love it too much :X but it really hurt =,=

I cried a lot yesterday :) haha I was so fucking crazy and outta mind :)) but then this morning when I wake up, I just felt so lonely and so empty...

I really love my bf, but well sometimes he said I dont care for him enough :) and each time he says so, I just fall down..easily and become so silly..

I dunno what's happening now.. half of me wants to know, half of me doesnt. I'm scared to face the truth, I dun know what'd happen if what I thought was right. I blame myself for being too sensitive and overeacting the whole damn thing. But well, yes we can't say about the future, what will be will be right?

Right now, I'm hoping my 6th sense is completely wrong and aint working :p

??

Am I right?

Or am I being too sensitive???

Fuck!!!

Sunday

...then Love has come back again

Argument helps ppl to understand each other?? I dunno :)) but I hate the feeling of getting hurt. I've never felt so bad like this time, since ever we've started to misunderstand each other, my hands trembled, my head shivered... I let ppl see me crying, and it was really unacceptable :))

I know that he loves me, I love him too

If ppl love each other, why they still hurt each other?

A question will never be answered


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Right now atm I'm feeling so worried...there's smt happening somewhere to someone I might know. But I haven't firgued out who why where yet... I'm so worried. Hope everything is alright to everyone.. pls god...

I'm tired :p but it felt so good when he held me on his arms...just like before...

I am

Always think I’m a strong girl

But actually I’m not

I’m easy to by hurt by a small word

I’m so afraid of getting hurt but it seems I’ll have to learn the way to live with my up-down feelings in peace :))

Thanks for the music box baby :)

Sensitive

I have to say that sometimes I'm so scared of being sensitive or having a 6th sense :))

I'm afraid of being able to feel what's coming next

I'm afraid of being able to feel what ppl are trying to hide me

:))

I'm tired

hehe

:))

But I've become like a robot these days

Feelings aint in my mind now

I don't wanna think of anything

I don't wanna say anything

I don't wanna do anything

I don't wanna laugh, don't wanna smile

I don't wanna try to say that "hey hey I'm fine"



Today when I was in the Yoga class, I had to leave earlier, coz I was pretty tired and couldn't breath :)) though the teacher was teaching how to take a deep breath =)) Like my breath was taken away

Goodnite Hal :X

Oh lah, tmr is Tue

10th June 2009

Good morning ^^

Hôm qua hức chờ papa đến hơn 1am, chờ hoài thấy sốt ruột gọi phone hỏi

- “Sao lâu thía con buồn ngủ?”
- “Trời chưa ngủ hả, bố về lâu rồi đang ngồi ăn, tưởng con ngủ rồi nên không gọi. Lúc về có người đi ra mở cửa ngõ nên bố vào được. Sao ngớ ngẩn thế cứ chờ không gọi cho bố? Bố lại nghĩ con ngủ sớm rồi. Thôi ngủ đi”
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Mình chắc đúng ngớ ngẩn thật rồi :-j Chắc bị dẩm quá :-j

Về giường nằm chắc 2h mấy ngủ lúc nào chẳng bik luôn ^^

Hôm qua off sớm đi ngủ, bị mỏi mắt thôi. Sau đấy bố nói chờ mở cửa cho bố. Lại ngồi dậy onl một lát để hết buồn ngủ, rồi đau lưng quá lại off để đi nằm. Nằm hog dám ngủ vì sợ ngủ quên hog nghe thấy ringtone.

Sáng nay dậy muộn, 7h15, hôm qua quên kéo rèm nắng quá. Dậy đã thấy umma đang nằm … tắm nắng =))

Thương papa hôm qua đi về trễ mà sáng nay dậy đi làm sớm rồi hAIZZ. I really love when my dad comes to my room each time he goes to work in the morning and and he says "goodmorning lazy, I'm going to work now" . Thinking of one day, every morning my future hubby would say “Have a nice day honey, I’m going to work now, take care, love you” . And when he’s home after a working day, he’d give me a hug and say “I’m home honey, miss you” . A hello sometimes means everything and makes ppl get closer, and it means a lot to me. That's why sometimes I come back to my room or a hotel room after going out, I usually say "hi, I'm home" even there's no one else inside =)) crazy lah :P ........... I wanna get married =)) =)) =)) Plaza June, wait for meeeeeeeeeee =)) =)) =))

Bây giờ có class , hi vọng IQ của mình hãy còn , hêhêh

Hôm nay phải làm nốt mấy cái board rồi mới đi đâu đc thì đi. Thề :))


Well so again my 6th sense did work, right? ^^ Actually it doesn't work all the time and doesn't work for everyone. The more I love that person, the more my 6thsense works well for...




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11:17pm - downpour : Gần 10h tối mới đi ăn, hôm nay ngoài đường trời như kiểu sương mù, chắc LDN cũng chỉ đến thế này thôi chứ mấy =)) Ngồi ăn được 1 tí trời mưa, Hal và Kim đành như mọi lần đội mưa về. Mưa to đến mức hông nhìn thấy gì trước mặt, vừa chạy xe vừa…đoán đường =)) May về đến nhà lành lặn mỗi tội ướt từ đầu tới chân. Mà mưa ướt thế rồi vẫn dừng lại mua mấy quả dừa về =)) Đúng kiểu ham ăn chẳng xá gì mưa rơi

Ướt quá

Lạnh quá

Ngu quá

Khìn quá

:))

Lost

If I lost smt, would I ever be able to find it again?

No, simply is No for the answer and always will be No for the answer as well

I've been losing many things

Not just losing, but like seeing the disappearance, a little bit each day, and I just cannot help

I'm scared

Don't ask me what makes me scared of

Coz I myself even can't tell exactly

Just so scared

so scared

but maybe it's never been mine, so shouldn't say that I'm losing it :)




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Wishing you were here with me

coz I'm so scared

IDK

Idk .. but smt is changing

smt so different

smt so new

I don't even know how to define it

just wanna write down smt to remark this feeling as the 6th sense of mine