Xmas is coming into town????

4 days before Xmas

And tomorrow is Edward's 1st bday :D time flies so quickly. Can't believe it's been a year since that "horrible" day :p

And tomorrow is "the end of the day" as well lol.

I don't feel Xmas this year, not a bit, tho I got my own Xmas tree this year. Maybe I should buy me something to make me feel like Santa is coming into town :))

My hubby is really busy this time. He goes outta town for business 3 days a week. And I have to get back home alone. I usually feel lonely when I'm on my way home, feel desperate :)) But right when I get home, tho being alone, I just feel...fine. I even enjoy it :p Enjoy the silence myself. And feel alright completely, I don't need anyone to comfort me at night :p So damn crazy duh?

I don't have much time left till my due date... I'm scared and nervous and excited as well. Can I do it? Can I? God please help me, give me strength to overcome this biggest moment of my life :)

Xmas Xmas Xmas, love me

Hal

xoxo

Doing things. All alone

Actually.

I hate doing things on my own. Supermarket, shopping, eating, coffee-ing, hanging around....

I even hate myself when I pretend to be fine if ppl ask me "are you ok with that?"

I don't wanna disturb anyone. But sometimes I just wanna say out loud that "can you help me?"

But then thinking after "can you help me" or "can you go with me", I'll definitely feel guilty. I usually talk to myself : "I can do it, it's not a big deal doing things alone"

So complicated :))

Sometimes hearing ppl say "I'll get whatever you want, don't be upset. What you want? Tell me" , just feel so damn good :p

Tomorrow my uncle will be back from Canada. He usually gets back to visit us once a year.

It's raining today :( And maybe that's why I feel this way :-<

Should I write down my Xmas wishlist this year? Or maybe I'm too old to dream about something and wait for mr. Santa to come? :))

Love

Hal

xoxo

25/12/2012 - One month before Xmas

One month before Xmas.

Since when I love counting down the day till Xmas?.... I think no matter where I am, how old I am, I still love Xmas with all my heart and soul

Listening to old Xmas songs, drinking a cup of hot tea, in a cozy room. Happiness is simple and it's here.

Hopefully one day I will have a chance to see Xmas in Paris, catching snow in my hands :p

Brrr I'm still dreaming of a white Xmas dear

I couldn't sleep well last night. My baby is growing so fast these days so sometimes he's really naughty and moving a lot inside of me. I can't deny that I love feeling him inside of me, but not at 2 in the morning =,=

I'm so looking forward to my due date. And btw I'm so scared of it too :p

Ppl said it's gonna be so damn hurt. I know. I've always prepared for that. But I'm scared :(((((((( Tho I know my hubby will be there to hold my hand, but I'm still so scared :((

God bless :x

Baby Mommy love you :)

Hal

xoxo

Mood swing

Từng tuổi này vẫn hỉnh thoảng bị những cái cơn mood swing thật đáng ghét

Ai động chạm gì cũng muốn chảy nước mắt

Hôm nay Kim với Ed về thăm nhà chồng. Trời thì xầm xì chuyển rét.

Một mình mình đi taxi về nhà. Giữa trưa

Tự dưng cũng thấy buồn phiền.

Empty. Alone

haizzz

Chả hiểu ra sao nữa. Cứ đổ tại là hôm nay 23 đi cho lành

Ôi bik bao giờ mới thật sự là control được bản thân mình??

Time changes everything

Relationships end because once the person has you, they stop doing the things that took to get you...

I can't deny that Time is always a big matter. It changes people, it changes everything, the smallest to the biggest things. So don't ever think that you can win Time. Nothing can overcome it.

My heart is too sensitive. That's my biggest weakness that drives me crazy sometimes.

Sometimes I feel lost and don't know whom I can rely on...

A friend of mine said I see things in pink all the time, so when things turn to be grey, I tend to not look at the reality. I tend to keep it inside and try to forget it.

I'm scared, Gosh I'm scared :))

Trust is easy to get and once it's gone, like paper that crumpled, it can't be back perfect again

All I still need to learn everyday is how to keep my heart safe, by my own self

You pissed me off

There will always be a "lie" in Believe
An "over" in Lover
An "end" in Friends
An "us" in Trust
and an "If" in Life


I was too tired yesterday. Too tired to even stand on my own feet after working hours. And I felt like I couldn't breath

I thought maybe I'd cook something simple for dinner. But then when you texted me and said you were tired, I told myself to get up and should go and do something better for you.

I swear all I thought was about You

I swear that no matter what I do and no matter where I go and whoever I'm with, I always think about you and worry about you the most.

But do you?

I felt like a fool yesterday, waiting for you hopelessly to come to pick me a little earlier because I was too tired. I just wanted to go home and lie next to you, then things would be better

All about what you did was just give me a text saying that you'd be late, and you wouldn't care about what I asked.

So I'm wondering is it a shame for you to answer your wife's text while you're with people?

I never wanna bother you if you wanna have time hanging out and having fun, without me. Coz we both need our own space sometimes. But pls think of me a little, like a few seconds. That's all. I don't ask for more

You made me feel like I couldn't rely on you, because you'd not come to rescue me no matter how I beg

:)

Anyway, I don't hate you. I hate myself for not trusting you completely 100%.

8.11.12 - Happy anniversary

It's been 4 years since we met :) 8.11.2012 today is our anniversary

4 years with laughs and tears

4 years with sharing and misunderstanding

4 years with happiness and sorrow

But I'm happy to be with you today

To see you every morning when I wake up

To hold you every night before I go to sleep

I hate to remember about what happened last year :) But it's been a year, and you've showed me how to love again...

I know there's still a long road ahead with many troubles... But as long as you hold my hand this tight. And as long as I can trust you this way. We can conquer everything, right?

I love you :x

Hal

Xoxo

Another bad dream...

Hóa ra điều khiến mình sợ hãi nhất vẫn là bị bỏ rơi

Cảm giác khi đang yêu thương một thứ gì đó, rồi bỗng nhiên tất cả biến thành mây khói... Thật đáng sợ...

Cứ mỗi lần quen với việc gì đấy, yêu một điều gì đấy, mình lại đâm ra sợ bị mất, điều mình yêu thương sẽ bỏ rơi mình...

Ám ảnh kinh khủng...

Lại vừa nằm mơ linh tinh. Hôm nay HN mưa bão, trời mưa suốt từ sáng đến giờ. U ám xám xịt đáng ghét ghê.

Nằm mơ giật mình tỉnh dậy, vội vã lấy phone nhắn tin như mọi lần... Hóa ra cũng chỉ là em nằm mơ thôi :P Hú hồn

Sợ

Sợ bị mất.

Sợ bị bỏ rơi

Thành ra nhiều khi sợ khi mình bắt đầu yêu...

Hôm nay em bé ngoan, nằm im ko quấy mama nhiều. Hôm trước đi khám bác sỹ, tiêm uốn ván mũi 2 xong xuôi rồi. Hóa ra tiêm cũng chẳng đau lắm, giờ mình chẳng sợ tiêm nữa :p

Ngày mai anh đi công tác. 2 ngày thôi. Nhưng mà ghét. Vì trời mưa. Vì đang có nhiều chương trình hay trên TV. Vì có người xoa lưng ôm mình mỗi tối. Vì có người chiều mình. Vì nhiều thứ.

 ...

Ghét mưa

Hal

xoxo

Life, oh life

The feeling of having a very tiny little people in your body is so amazing

My boy is so naughty :p he loves kicking his mommy. But I do love him, I love the feeling of waking up every morning and feeling him inside of me. Not many days left I will see him face to face. To kiss him, to hold him, to touch him, and to love him with all my heart and my soul

I'm at the 27 week now. I've gained around 5kg. And still there're some ppl doubting about me - pregnant. Even some salespeople at the baby shops :)) I don't feel to hard to be pregnant, except everyday after work and get home, I do feel exhausted, and just wanna lay down on my bed and don't have to care about cooking dinner, or chores anymore. But still I have to get up coz I hate seeing my house look dirty and messy. Sometimes it drives me crazy and crying without knowing why :p

My hubby he helps me a lot, but he's just a man, so he only helps when I ask him to :D And I know he's already had many troubles at work, so everytime I wanna skip cooking and go outside, thinking of him having a long day without a real meal, I don't feel tired of getting up anymore.

The weather is so lovely today. I will have a day out with my friends today :D Now let's go and enjoy

LOVE

Hal

xoxo

I'm scared of October

I'm scared of October

I just looked around my diary last year. October was fulled in tears and hopeless

I'm scared. I'm really scared

I still remember all the tears. All the feelings. All the sadness

I still remember everything. Your voice. Your lies.

I still remember every raindrops.

I don't know how. I don't know when. It will be over

I love you :) I really do. But I'm scared it will happen again. Coz somehow I always think it'll happen again

Tell me what do I have to do now?

...

Anh :x

Dear anh

It's been almost 6 months since our wedding day. And I still feel like "can't help but falling in love with you" :D

I love you. I love the way you kiss me when I'm half asleep or simply you kiss me when I'm sleeping (then I'll be waken up by that kiss)

I love you when you help me to wash dishes, to carry heavy things upstair downstair

I love the way you hold my hands when we hang out.

I love you when you tease me everyday before we go to bed

I love you when you hold me :) when you kiss me on my cheek every morning before we get outta bed to go to work

I love you when you ask me whether if I'm full or not. You always worry if I'm hungry

I love you coz you love out baby and I know you're so excited to wait for our boy

I love you simply because you are my baby's father

And I hate you because you spend time with your game when you're home. Coz I just want you to be mine. All mine - Your mind, heart and soul.

I love you :)

Hal
Xoxo

Feeling the autumn

Thời tiết Hanoi mấy hôm nay mát dịu đáng yêu kinh khủng. Nắng vàng rực rỡ lấp lánh :x

Nếu ko mệt thì mình chỉ muốn ở ngoài đường càng nhiều càng tốt :X Đi loanh quanh ngó nghiêng la cà quán xá :x Cảm giác thật phấn chấn hạnh phúc íh

Em bé dường như là hiểu mama, cứ có tiếng động hay tiếng mình gọi là trả lời mình :x

Đến tháng 2 là mình được gặp em bé rồi, I'm gonna be a cool mom I swear

Thời tiết làm mình bớt khó chịu hơn. Mình cũng không tăng nhiều kg lắm. 24 tuần tăng khoảng 4kg. Khá là perfect.

Em bé ngọ nguậy của mama ơi. Con ngoan nha :x

Today is 8th, our monthsary. We've been together for 3 years and 11 months :) Such a long road right?

I'm happy that you're my baby's father :x

LOVE

Hal

xoxo

The first kick

I felt the first kick today :D it was amazing. Actually I could felt the baby was moving around 2 weeks ago. But today I could felt that he really kicked me :D

God bless. Baby we love you :x

I love going shopping for my baby

I love looking at tiny baby stuff and thinking about my boy

I love feeling him inside of me and being a part of me

I don't know how but I'll try to be a good mommy :D

Pls be safe :)

Love
Hal
xoxo

Nightmare. Mẹ. Mệt

Dạo này mình có vẻ đến giai đoạn stress. Đêm hôm qua toàn nằm mơ linh tinh, những giấc mơ kinh khủng. Mơ về mẹ.... Đến lúc giật mình dậy mất mấy giây sau mình mới nhận ra đấy chỉ là mơ. Nhưng mình vẫn khóc nức nở...

Khóc vì quá sợ hãi

Khóc vì nhận ra đấy chỉ là một cơn ác mộng

Ax tưởng mình bị làm sao :(

2 hôm nay thấy toàn thân mệt mỏi ê ẩm, ko muốn nói ko muốn cười ko muốn suy nghĩ gì hết

Mệt quá

Bao giờ mới hết trạng thái này

Thân thể này dường như ko phải của mình nữa

...

God bless

Mẹ hôm nay sốt cao, 39*C. Khổ thân mẹ lắm...

Mẹ mau khỏi mẹ nhé, đừng sốt nữa...

Yêu mẹ

Những bài học đơn giản

Thế mới biết người ta nói đúng "Đi một ngày đàng, học một sàng khôn". Càng đi nhiều, càng tiếp xúc nhiều, sẽ càng ngộ ra nhiều điều mới. Có những điều rút ra làm bài học xương máu cho bản thân mình. Để tránh xa, để dè chừng sẽ không bao giờ vấp phải nữa.

- Sang trọng là thuộc về đẳng cấp. Nó xuất phát từ bên trong con người. Giống như sexy vậy. Không phải ai cứ cố gắng mặc cái áo này, đi ô tô này, ăn món ăn này.... đều có thể trở thành người sang trọng. Sợ nhất là những người cứ lấy mác "có tiền nên mình là người sang trọng" để đi đến đâu cũng vênh mặt lên, quát lác người khác, rồi nghĩ như thể mình "sang trọng" lắm :)) nản!!!

- Yêu thương phải xuất phát từ tâm con người. Yêu thương cũng không thể giả vờ được mãi. Khó khăn mới biết ai thật lòng với mình, ai luôn biết cách bảo vệ và tin tưởng mình.

- Của cho không bằng cách cho.

- Nói xấu sau lưng người khác là căn bệnh muôn thuở của nhân loại. Thế nên sống cần biết vị tha, khi người ta xấu xa với mình nên biết nghĩ đến những cái tốt đẹp của người ta.

- Tiền bạc là vấn đề nhạy cảm. Không phải gia đình nào cũng có cái nhìn về Tiền như gia đình nào.

Ôi zào ngày thứ 7 trời lúc mưa lúc nắng. Hôm nay là monthsary của mình. Chúc mình lúc nào cũng có cái nhìn lạc quan về cuộc sống, "mù câm điếc" trước thị phi của cuộc đời.

Love

Hal
xoxo

Cuộc đời

"Chồng làm thì vợ có công

Của chồng công vợ đừng mong của mình."

...

Cuộc sống gia đình thật chẳng đơn giản như mình từng suy nghĩ. Cuộc sống cũng chẳng phải "có anh có em chuyện gì cũng có thể vượt qua". Còn hàng trăm thứ loằng ngoằng phức tạp liên quan tới. Nhiều chuyện có nằm mơ cũng chả nghĩ ra thì cũng vẫn có thể xảy ra.

Nghĩ lại bản thân là đứa vô tư, sống vô tư, suy nghĩ vô tư, bố mẹ cưng chiều, bạn bè tốt bụng hiểu ý. Nhưng càng ngày càng thấy có quá nhiều cái phức tạp ko sao tưởng tượng nổi diễn ra làm mình cảm thấy bất ngờ. Có phần bị shock, có phần bị tổn thương, có phần phải khép mình lại vì sợ hãi.

Mới có hơn 4 tháng, bắt đầu cảm nhận được vị đắng của cuộc sống gia đình. Làm thế nào cho vừa ý người khác mà mình vẫn không bị tổn thương.

Nhiều lúc nghĩ mà muốn khóc, tủi thân...

Nếu sống mà biết luôn nghĩ tốt cho người khác thì có lẽ xã hội chả đến mức rối tinh như này.

God bless... Pls help me to have enough love to get through every troubles

Love

Hal

xoxo

I'm sorry myself

Life is getting troubles, more and more everyday.

It ain't "good things come to an end" like I always convince myself

It ain't always in pink like I always think it is

When love is still here, but there're still troubles that drive me crazy and I feel so lost.

I don't know how to handle it. I don't even know whom I can talk to to get me some advices.

I'm so lost in this new life actually.

And feel like it's not "two are one". Somehow it's still "two is trying to get in one shirt".

I'm feeling confused a little bit whether if ppl really love me like they act and say or not. I'm easy to believe in good things so suddenly I realize the truth is not what I think it is, I feel so upset, really really upset.

I hate it when someone doubt about what I'm doing. Just a thought of it could hurt me. Enough.

Maybe I'm not mature enough. So ppl tend to treat me like a kid sometimes.

I'm sorry myself :)

Now back to reality. No more living in a dream. I'll soon be back to me again :)

Love

Hal
xoxo

Missing you, grandma

If I had a wish

I wish I'd see my grandma once again... even only once, in my dream

Just wanna see her face, hold her hand.... even only once again

Grandma I miss you. I really do :)

I bet you're now in heaven with grandpa, looking at us.

I pray for you everyday :) Because I know you always hoped we'd :)



Today I don't go home, spend tonight with my parents coz my hubby is outta town for business. Sometimes it's' good to feel like the old days, when I was young. But there's something missing in my heart coz now I don't have my grandma here, not anymore

...

Anyway I'll try to move on :) tho I do really miss her, and tho I still cry everytime I think about her

God bless :)

Have you ever...?

Have you ever felt lost among so many people?

Have you ever felt you belong to somewhere else but you must stay to not upset people?

Have you ever felt your heart is broken into pieces and it hurts you more than any physical pain?

Have you ever felt you love this person but the one who makes you feel so you and so complete is someone else?

Have you ever wanna be alone just to know who really cares?

Have you ever felt so exhausted that you don't give a damn in anything, you just want life flows you away?

Have you ever felt so crazy in love but the one you love just give you an easy smile that blows your all passion away?

Have you ever just wanted to stay in someone's arms and that means enough to you?

Have you ever just wanted to stay away to get no hurt at last?

Have you ever just wanted ao badly a text saying that "I miss you"? Or an unexpected flower?

Maybe all I need now is Passion. Passion in Life and Passion in Love.

I don't want a dead life.

Bà ơi...

I still can't believe that my grandma has gone, forever.

She left us...  after a long time got sick.

But I still can't accept the truth.

I still miss her a lot, that sometimes I forget that she's not here anymore.

I didn't spend enough time to be with her in her last days. In my mind, she always was there, in her room, so everytime when I was back to my house, I usually looked in her room just to make sure that she was there. But now nobody is there, nobody is lying on that bed anymore...

I remember all the memories we had together. She was the one who raised me up, who taught me my first writing, who took me to school when my parents was busy. I remember when I was just a lil kid, every morning she woke me up, helped me to dress up tho at that time I did wish that she'd allow me to dress more beautifully. Then we went out for breakfast together, hand in hand...

Grandma, I miss you. I really really miss you. Everytime I think about you, I can't stop crying, like I am now... I can't believe that you're gone... I can't believe that now I won't ever ever have a chance to hold your hand anymore, to say hi to you anymore, to answer all of your questions about my husband, you always worried that whether he was good to me or not... 

Please God, bring her to heaven to be with you.

Bà ơi, bà ơi... Con nhớ bà nhiều lắm..

3rd checking

I got the 3rd checking today :D It was good thank God, but gotta take another checking next week

I'm feeling good, but sometimes get pissed without knowing why. And I always think purple :-<

Haiz I really wanna go shopping, I wanna go to Bankok or Singapore :(( Sale off season is everywhere.

I've been learning how to save money . But it's pretty hard . After getting married, I need to learn to get some back-up plans, coz no one knows about what tomorrow brings right?

So try to save some money :D

But I've been spending too much on new clothes and moisture skin cream. I wanna be beautiful no matter what happens :p

Ok get some sleep now, mama's lunch was so good.

Love

Hal
xoxo

Difficult period of time

I know I'm in one of the hardest period of time in my life. I know it must be difficult and tough.

But I don't expect this kinda tough anyway

I think I'm pretty good at controlling myself and solving my own problems. But now it ain't true anymore. I'm so easy to be angry and to be broken and to cry.

I know this's not right. I know me-being angry-though ppl already say sorry is not right. But I can't handle myself anymore.

I stayed up until 4am last night. And I cried without knowing why.

And I'm sad when I look at my phone list, I don't know whom to call. I don't know whom I can talk to. I don't know whether if my friends can understand me or not. I'm scared to be this kinda lonely

I know everything is gonna be over soon. But until that day, how can I survive healthily and how can I be who I wanna be? I hate seeing me relying everyone

God please help me :x I am waiting for the sun in me get back

Love

Hal

xoxo

Thèm. Chán

Mình nghĩ là mình đang ở giai đoạn đầu của bệnh stress.

Cảm thấy mọi thứ đều chán ngắt. Loanh quanh luẩn quẩn ngoài ăn ngủ, xem news, đọc mấy quyển tiểu thuyết sướt mướt, đi lại chậm chạp trong phạm vi đóng khung cho phép. Hết.


Niềm an ủi bây giờ là cái iphone liên lạc với thế giới bên ngoài. Và thỉnh thoảng đi tắm, ngồi đọc mấy cái nhãn mác sản phẩm lấy đó làm niềm vui.

Thèm được ra đường tung tẩy.
Thèm đi ăn uống mấy món lặt vặt.
Thèm đi gym, chạy nhảy với huấn luyện viên.
Thèm phóng xe lượn lờ khắp phố
Thèm đi shopping điên đảo
Thèm cafe, bar, pub, dancing.

Nói chung là thèm một cuộc sống vui tươi trước kia.

Làm những việc mình thik. Ăn những thứ mình thật sự muốn.

Thế hoá ra bản thân mình vốn dĩ là hay đi ngược với "cuộc sống lành mạnh". Vì bây giờ thật sự đang sống lành mạnh thì mình lại cảm thấy ko sao chịu nổi. Mình thấy mệt mỏi quá. Nghỉ dưỡng thế này cũng thật oải

Thấy mọi ng quan tâm quá nhiều, hoặc có thể là ko hề quan tâm đến cảm giác của mình ra sao. Mình có vui hay buồn cũng chả ai hỏi. Luôn luôn chỉ là "Làm gì đấy? Ăn chưa? Uống thuốc chưa?" . Mình có than mệt thì câu duy nhất mình nhận được "Ai chả thế, thôi chịu khó"

Than làm dek gì nữa cho mệt thêm?

Cám ơn bạn nào đã thật sự hỏi mình câu hỏi "Em ko vui ah?" ngày hôm nay. Bởi vì thế mới hiểu, quan tâm ngoài thể chất thì tinh thần còn quan trọng hơn gấp nhiều lần

Em cám ơn... :)

Ôi sao muốn khóc huhuhu lên quá thế này

The 2nd time checking today. Phew!!!

Hôm nau đã trút được một gánh nặng.

Phew thở phào nhẹ nhõm cả tinh thần.

 Anh xã thì đi đi lại lại lo đứng ngồi chả yên.

Papa thì lơ đễnh suy nghĩ làm vỡ liền mấy cái cốc.

Mẹ Hạnh Mẹ Mỹ thì sốt ruột cứ dặn hỏi bác sỹ đủ thứ.

Nhưng rốt cuộc thì lạy Chúa mình ko sao

Sợ một phen
...

Lạy Chúa thương cho mọi chuyện từ giờ được yên ổn.
Con hứa sẽ ko chạy nhảy lung tung, ko đi đứng bất cẩn nữa ah :((

God bless

26/06/12
174/ phút
1.5cm

Em ốm...

Em ốm.

Sáng trước khi đi làm anh dậy sớm làm đồ ăn, pha nước cam cho em.  Dặn em bật TV lên mà coi

Trưa giữa buổi làm anh lại chạy về nấu cơm, ăn cơm với em vì sợ em mệt, sợ em ăn 1 mình buồn.

Trước khi đi làm lại đun sữa cho em, để cạnh giường dặn chiều phải em nhớ uống hết.

Chiều tối thì hỏi em muốn ăn món gì ngon để đi mua về nấu.

"Anh chỉ biết nấu mấy món đơn giản thôi".
Nhưng cái gì anh làm cũng ngon hết.
Trứng rán, sữa đun bị khét, rau xaò mà anh bảo sợ hơi mặn
Em ăn gì cũng thấy ngon hết

Lâu lắm rồi mấy thấy ngoài bố mẹ ra có người thương em như thế

Thế nên em mới gọi anh là chồng, anh nhỉ? :D

 Em cũng thương anh lắm. Anh ơi lúc nào anh cũng như này nhé, đừng quên nhé :D

:X

Yêu anh nữa

Hal

xoxo

Hạnh phúc đôi khi là thế này đây.... Bố ơi bố thật tuyệt vời :X

I feel betta today

Sáng nay mình dậy muộn vì hôm qua quên mất ko đặt alarm. 8:30 mới nhỏm được dậy.

Đi shower, đánh răng rửa mặt, vừa ngó ra thì bố đã hỏi "Xong chưa, ăn phở nhé, mẹ mua phở đấy con"

Đi vào bếp thấy bố đã đun lại chỗ nước phở và đang lúi húi đổ vào 2 bát..

Chà, bố vẫn là bố. Bố đun phở chưa nóng lắm. Nhưng mà mình ăn ngon lành. Cảm động cứ muốn rớt nước mắt ra íh.

Ước gì mọi ông chồng trên thế giới này đều như bố. Thương con và yêu mẹ. Chẳng bao giờ nề hà làm bất cứ việc gì. Từ nhỏ bố luôn là thần tượng của mình. Có cảm giác việc gì bố cũng biết làm. Từ dạy mình học piano, dạy mình làm toán viết văn, các môn lý hóa bố cũng thay gia sư dạy tuốt. Rồi các loại máy móc trong nhà, điện nước đều một tay bố quản lý hết... Bố ơi bố tuyệt vời lắm :) Lúc nào bố cũng nhẹ nhàng với 2 đứa con, chưa bao giờ dùng roi dạy, mà chỉ nói chuyện đến khi bọn con hiểu và ko làm sai nữa

Mình ốm nằm ở Tràng Thi mấy ngày hôm nay rồi. Bố mẹ cưng như mình mới chỉ có mấy tuổi. Sáng nào cũng mua sẵn đồ ăn, ngồi trông mình ăn cho bằng hết. Mẹ bận thì dặn bố trông. Ko thì cả nhà cùng ngồi ăn...

Hạnh phúc đôi khi là thế này đây...

Sick

Boys will be boys. No matter how they love you, they are just boys. And boys can't be sensitive enough to understand a girl's world.

Today I almost cried when my friend asked me "Hal, are you sick?". I cried because I realize he was worried about me because he really cared. Not because of any situations, people or anything else. I just wanna cry

I feel sick

I feel tired

 I feel so worry

I feel so small

I feel pain

I feel my shoulders are shaking

I feel the tears on my cheek

But all I can do is screaming inside. I've got such a long phone contact list. But I don't know whom to call.

Pls God, bless me

Leave everything behind us

Mình cảm thấy hơi mệt. Thấy đau đầu. Thấy khó xử nữa.

Mình.
Lúc nào cũng to mồm mong muốn người khác quan tâm đến mình.
Đôi lúc ứa nước mắt tự hỏi "sao trên đời có người vô tâm đến vậy?".
Nhưng đến khi thoả mãn vì được quan tâm rồi thì lại cảm thấy băn khoăn và bứt rứt.
Băn khoăn vì cảm thấy bản thân quá phiền hà khiến người khác phải quan tâm tới.
Băn khoăn vì sợ hãi liệu người ta quan tâm đến mình rồi thì có nghĩ xấu về mình ko?
Có cho rằng mình là đứa ích kỷ tham lam đòi hỏi quá ko?

Hiện giờ đang suy nghĩ rất nhiều.
Ngày nào cũng suy nghĩ.
Suy nghĩ đủ để viết thành sách.

I love you baby. I'm so grateful to have you in my life. Sometimes I hate it when you just do what I ask you to do. If I don't say anything, of course you just stand there and watch  Sometimes I feel that I'm so useless when you help me to do stuff without me-asking you. ... So what's going on with me?

People keep misunderstanding each other. I hate to stand in between. Now all I need is you to be with me :) hold me tight and comfort me :) and leave things behind us...

Leave everything behind us...

Alright take a rest now.
Hal
xoxo

Rainy - thinking - day

I know that nothing lasts forever.

You can't love someone forever.

You can't hate someone forever.

I don't deny that I'm so happy with what I have now. A new chapter of my life that I always dream of. A new family that I'm so in love with.

But I'm scared of what "will" happen one day. I know bad things will come. I'm scared that I'd not feel this love anymore one day. I'm scared that he won't love me and want me like this anymore one day. I'm scared that we'll feel tired of each other and want to give up on each other like we did before...

I'm scared

:D

Everytime I feel happiness, I always feel scared as well.

.....

I was pretty sick, gotta stay in my parents' house for 3 days, lying on bed only.

Now when I got back, I feel something different.

I don't know what kinda difference

Maybe I'm in the most sensitive time of my life.

Haiz

So tired

Today it rained so hard in Hanoi. Like it's never rained like that before. So I couldn't get to my house. And my husband couldn't come to take me home. So I'm staying in my parents' house.

But I must say I love staying with parents after getting married :D Coz dunno why they turn to treating me like a kid :p

Love you mom and dad

Anyway goodnite

Diary, I'm sorry for being so lazy writing news in here. I promise I will try better

Love

Hal

xoxo

Thank God for always loving me and listening to me :)

Thank you

Tired - 1st checking

Long day

Feeling tired

Went to the hospital for the 1st checking today. Thank God it was pretty ok :D so I don't have to worry much anymore

I've been feeling so tired and complicated and so sensitive. It's so easy to make me cry

So please don't

...

It's not just me you know

Love

Hal

xoxo

Thứ 4 lúc mưa lúc nắng, chồng yêu chồng chiều :x

Hôm nay là một ngày buồn cười. Trời thì lúc mưa lúc nắng. Làm mình đau đầu điên đảo íh

Sáng nay chồng đánh thức dậy sớm, chở mình đi ăn sáng, xong đi mua sách :)) Quỹ thời gian sang chưa? Xong anh xã chở về Tràng Thi rồi mới đi làm. Bi giờ mình lên cơn lười, ở đây đến tối cơ, nhắn tin anh xã nói là Lát bao giờ ăn xong muốn về thì nhắn tin anh đón :X

Thích cuộc sống thế này điên lên được íh :X

Nên mình cũng rất yêu chồng mình. Vì chồng mình từ lúc cưới đến giờ vẫn cưng mình như ngày đầu mới yêu

Hí hí

Hôm nay mệt, bụng không đau nữa :X Tiến triển đỡ hơn hôm qua

Thôi chuẩn bị đi làm tiếp :x

Yêu đương quá

Hal

xoxo

New little news

Thanks God for listening to my prayers :x

Today was one of the biggest day in my life

I was too happy that I felt kinda nervous and I didn't know what to say :x

Am I gonna be good enuf?

I'll try

Yes I will

Peace and Healthy

 Love you

 Hal

xoxo

What a nice rainy day

Hôm nay trời mưa suốt

Sáng đi khai trương showroom mới của công ty ax

Xong về Tràng Thi

Xong trời mưa quá bi giờ chưa về nổi nhà

Chờ ax đi công tác xa về đón

:x

Lâu mới được như thế này...tối đến viết blog, ăn cơm nói chuyện phiếm với cả nhà, loanh quanh chơi vơi Ed, xong lại được tắm ở trong cái nhà tắm quen thuộc :X May mà khi đi lấy chồng mình vẫn để lại nguyên xi toàn bộ đồ tắm, đồ tẩy trang make up, quần áo ngủ :X bi giờ chả thiếu gì cả

Yêu

Hal

xoxo

Bố mẹ ơi...

Bố mẹ ơi

Giá như trước đây con ngoan hơn, biết nghe lời và biết thương bố mẹ nhiều hơn...

 Đi lấy chồng rồi thấy thương bố mẹ kinh khủng

Trưa bố đừng thức chờ để mở cửa rồi lại đóng cửa cho con đi về nữa

Mẹ đừng xót xa lo con ko biết nấu cơm ăn uống ko đầy đủ nữa

Cả nhà đừng lo cho con nhiều nữa

Con xin lỗi vì lớn thế này rồi chưa giúp gì được bố mẹ nhiều mà toàn khiến bố mẹ lo lắng ...

Hôm nay trên đường đi về nhà mới, mình khóc suốt.

Cũng may có kính khẩu trang che mặt nên ko ai nhìn thấy

Khóc vì thương bố mẹ

Khóc vì mình chưa đủ tốt ...

After honeymoon

It's been almost a month since my last post. Well I was busy with my honeymoon :D It was such an amazing experience. We went to Paris, Geneva and Monaco. I couldn't believe in my eyes when I first saw the Eiffel :X I asked myself "Am I dreaming or this is real?" :X

I loved staying in Paris much more than in Geneva. Geneva was a bit...slower and smoother. Quite peaceful :) Monaco was sunny and beautiful, and ppl were so trendy. I loved to smell the air. But when I got to Paris, such a weird feeling happened in me. When I listened to my French favourite song "La Maritza" while on the boat in Seine, I felt touched, and somehow now I understand why ppl said "Once you fall in love with Paris, you'll never be able to forget about it"

Thanks uncle Van for helping me in Paris, he's my parents' cousin, and his mom is my grandma's sister. He helped us a lot.

Then got back to VN after 11 days, was so damn busy. Busy moving to our new house, busy seeing ppl, busy tidying up, busy buying furniture and stuff... It took me most of the day to do such unnamed works

But getting married, to me till now it's still one of the most wonderful thing that ever happened to my life. My husband is an understanding man, so he's willing to help me to do chores. He doesn't mind to help me washing dishes when my friends come to visit :X Thanks a lot baby :)

I love my life now. Every morning, I go to gym, then get back to the restaurant to work, then have lunch with my big family, the go shopping or cafe with my friends a bit. Then get back to my small family :) Waiting for my husband to get home and cooking with him. After that maybe we will go out for movies, or go to bar to have our favourite drinks like we did before.

I'm enjoying this life. In a new way, but still ME :)

Love

Hal

xoxo

18/04/2012

Cuối cùng cũng đã đám cưới xong rồi

Mẹ ơi con nhớ nhà quá. Con nhớ mẹ, nhớ mọi người quá. Nhớ cái chỗ con nằm quá. Nhớ đủ thứ chết đi được. Khóc mãi vẫn ko hết nhớ. Biết là chỉ vài hôm thôi nhưng tự nhiên ng ta cứ nói đi lấy chồng này nọ làm con nhớ quá. Con nhớ quá :((((

Kiểu gì ih đêm tân hôn mình lại ngồi khóc nhớ nhà

Mẹ ơi

Mẹ ơi

17/04/2012

I got a quite completed day today. I've received too many wishes from my friends and even from ppl I don't really know. But I just wanna say, you guys made my last single b'day the most wonderful b'day ever :) thank you so much.

Today Kim said "I wish I didn't tell you to get married. Coz till now I still can't believe that you're getting married tomorrow. It's weird but I wish you'd always be here on this room, sharing eveything with me like we used to do" . I jst wanna cry. Kim's my little sister. She got married last year and she's the one who always tell me to get married...
I truly love you with all my heart Kim. You're not only my sister but also my best friend. Thank you for always loving me no matter what happens.

And papa mama, I'll always be your little daughter. I'm getting married, but it doesn't mean that I'm leaving you guys to live in a new family. No, forever and ever, you guys will always be the most important people in my life. And nothing can ever change that. A word "Thanks" doesn't really enuf for what you've done to me :) but I love you guys , always have always will. I'm sorry for what I did that made you sad and worry :)

Grandma, pls take care, stay with me, don't leave me :) Mom Mỹ, thank you for loving me unconditionally. You didn't give me birth, but you'll always be my mom :) always

I love you all :x and this wedding will help me to grow up, and help me to understand and to love you guys much more

God bless

Love

Hal
Xoxo

16/04/2012

Not much hours left till my b'day :D This year is really really special. So this is what I wish that I could archieve on my new year old:

- Breakfast in Tiffany
- Having a new white piano
- Being a good wife
- Learning Francais again
- Master in cooking /lol/
- Saving a life
- Forgiving someone I really hate

Well that's it!

People are forgetting about my b'day :( I'm kinda upset a bit coz they just concentrate on my wedding day :(

If there were someone saying "Happy b'day" to me on the 1st second of my b'day. I'd love him/her to death :))

Love

Hal

Peace xx

Something about my wedding

Wedding invitation




Some of my wedding photos

Busy day - Packing up

It was such a busy day. I was on the street for the whole morning. To the tourist center to pay for the Europe trip. Then get the ceiling lamp to my house. Then back home to pack up all of my stuff

My gosh. I can't imagine that I got that kinda MUCH clothes and stuff. Tho I haven't finished today but I feel like crazy

:))

I'm wondering whether my closet room will have enough space for me or not

6 days left. I'm going to get married.

And I'm going to Paris, Geneva, and Monaco after my wedding 2 days

I'm feeling like I'm flying

My b'day is coming up but ppl are forgetting about it :D They just mention of my wedding day all the time :(

Tired tired. Thanks Kimmy so much today :X

Love

Hal

xoxo

Sorry...

Tự nhiên mình cảm thấy có lỗi và phiền nhiễu ghê gớm

Cảm thấy mình làm khó người khác quá

Cảm thấy mình khiến người khác thêm phần gánh nặng mệt mỏi trong lúc mọi việc đã rối tinh rối mù lên rồi.

Em xin lỗi

...

If I knew it'd be this kinda burden, I'd never ask you to do this for me

I'm sorry

I just don't want you to worry...

What should I do now? And what can I do?

I'm not really good enuf. Feels like I don't understand everything about you

The hardest thing

The hardest thing I've even been taught is Try to smile with ppl who hurts you and Forgive what they did to you.

Life is complicated. People keep hurting each other, unintentionally or intentionally. Hearts are broken everyday.

I'm not a saint. I'm just so human-being. I have a very sensitive heart. But I always try to remember the good side of someone, than remember the bad side.

Everytime I'm hurt by someone, I feel like my heart got another crack. And nobody could ever fix it but me. I keep it inside. I'm afraid if I say it out loud, there'll be someone who have to share the pain with me, whether if they want or not, it's still not a good thing

If you don't wanna get hurt, just stay away from ppl or things that might hurt you

:)

Lesson learnt

God bless

Hal

xoxo

Muốn..

Mình chỉ muốn có một đám cưới đơn giản, không rườm rà thủ tục lễ nghi

Xin thề nếu được phép, mình sẽ chỉ đăng ký kết hôn và làm đám cưới trong nhà thờ mà thôi

Mình muốn sống cuộc sống của chính mình, được làm những gì mình thích, được quyền quyết định bản thân mình

Mình ko muốn bị điều khiển bởi ai cả

Mình cũng ko muốn tranh cãi cáu gắt thù ghét hờn dỗi ai cả

Mình muốn mọi thứ thật nhẹ nhàng và thanh thản

Sống sao để thấy bình an trong tâm hồn

Vậy thôi

Làm ơn đừng đụng đến mình nữa

Anh à, em rất thông cảm với anh :) Và thương anh :)

1/4 - Thích lấy chồng bỏ xừ

Hôm nay cưới Chi shit ở myband. Nên hôm qua mình và anh xã đã lặn lội phóng xe từ Hanoi xuống Hải phòng để hôm nay đi đám cưới nó. Hai đứa tối hôm qua mò lên Parkson Hải Phòng để coi phim :)) sau đấy về nhà coi đá banh

Trưa nay sau khi ăn cưới xong, mình đã lái xe một mạch từ Hải Phòng về Hà Nội gần 100km :p siêu chưa. Đây là lần đầu tiên mình lái ô tô chặng đường lâu thế :x thích thú

Mình cũng liệt kê ra một danh sách vì sao mình nên lấy chồng :p Và vì sao tự nhiên mình thích lấy chồng :))

- Được ra ở riêng, có nhà riêng, có chỗ riêng để làm bất kỳ cái gì mình thích, ăn uống bất kỳ cái gì mình muốn, nằm bất cứ chỗ nào thấy thoải mái.

- Có một phòng riêng để thay đồ to uỳnh, tha hồ lưu trữ giày dép quần áo

- Có một phòng tắm riêng của mình :X để trưng bày một collection sữa tắm + lotion :))

- Được thoải mái tô trát vẽ bậy lên tường mà ko ai (dám) comment đểu :)) . Được tùy nghi di chuyển thay đổi đồ đạc trong nhà

- Được về khuya sau 12h mà ko cần xin phép một cách đau khổ. Vì một là rủ chồng đi cùng, 2 là kệ chồng cho ở nhà chơi vì ta có key riêng ta cứ đi ra đi vào thôi :))

- Được nằm ăn uống bừa bãi một chút cũng sẽ ko bị kêu ca là "sao con gái mà lại nằm ăn thế kia" =))

- Nếu ko muốn rủa bát thì làm bộ dễ thương mè nheo chồng (chiêu này đặc biệt ko nên áp dụng với các bà mẹ vì vô hiệu)

- Hứng chí lên vợ chồng cùng nhau khui rượu trèo lên sân thượng ngồi uống với nhau. Chồng mình đã hứa thế đấy, hứa sẽ mua một tủ đầy Martini với khô bò cho mình :X từ nay mình ko còn phải cô đơn ngồi vật vờ một mình nữa rồi :x


Tạm thời là thích thế đấy :X. Còn những chuyện khác hậu xét :))

Love

Hal

xoxo

Shopping day

It was a quite interesting day.

I got out this morning with my mother-in-law. She took me to her friend's place, the one who wants to give me a wedding dress. So I got another one. I don't really like it, but anyway it's a wedding present so I had to force myself to say yes :D

Then we went to shopping. She gave me another necklace for my wedding day. Then we got a big shopping time at FCUK store today :)) Bought the whole store lol, 22 items in 1 hour shopping. But it was good to have a private time with my husband's mother. I hope we could get along with each other. Because I understand we both love one man :D - My husband

Then got home, today Edward was soooooooo cuteeeeeeeeee and so lovely. My sis had to go to the uni :D So me and my mom we took care of him, fed him, helped him to take shower.

I bought KFC today and funny my parents joined us today :)) My parents hate KFC. But today it was the first time we could finish the whole combo

Heh 20 days left. But I feel good as usual

Love

Hal
xoxo

Life-lesson

What makes a so easy-to-be-broken-down me today?

I got temperature up and down for all night. This morning when I woke up, I felt like all of my strength are gone.

Im feeling tired. Body and mind. And my heart as well

So that's why when you called me, I cried. And sorry for making you worry about me

But I'm glad that there's someone to pull me up when I'm down

Someone who'll never judge me

Someone who'll never try to show me that I'm wrong or right

Someone who'll try to not understand the situation and simply says "I know why you felt that way"

I got a kinda life-lesson. Even when someone loves you with all his heart, but one day he can turn his back on you and leave you behind

I know I'm not good enough. I might make mistakes. But what I need is you to stay by my side and let me cry on your shoulder

Don't try to correct me. I felt bad enough

Cot it made me feel even worse

No-one

I'm feeling so disappointed

I dont know why suddenly I've been acting so weird and overreact.

But maybe it was like too many things came to me at the same time. So a bit of tired, a bit of being pissed, a bit of feeling so confused, a bit of feeling lonely. It all made a wanna cry out - me

I wish you could understand me. But what you did to me was a try, while you didnt really wanna do it

Is there anyone on earth, in any very short moment, consider me as the most important thing they have? And try to understand me bcoz they want to, not because they have to?

Actually I've already known the answer

Today.

Peace

Hal

xoxo

Dear friend

If you think that ppl have changed. So maybe you're the one who's changed too.

Sometimes I wonder, you really mean what you say or it's just the quote that you have to when you talk to me?

Friends. I don't have too many friends. Just a few. And enough

But once I call you friend, that means I truly love you

You always sound like you're here for me. You're always good to me. You love me most. But what I'm seeing is everything is still the same, I'm still alone. Without you.

What should I call you now?

:)

Chồng :x

Biết thế này thì kết hôn sớm cho rồi :)) :p

Từ khi lên chức "chồng", anh tự nhiên là đáng yêu hơn nhiều

Chiều mình lắm

Nhường mình lắm

Có cảm giác là lạ lắm

Bình thường mình cáu cáu là cũng có thể sẵn sàng cãi nhau với mình ngay

Nhưng bi giờ khác hẳn, lại còn xuống nước nhường mình

:o

Nhường lắm íh

Mà mình bị mắc cái bệnh, chỉ thích nghe nói ngọt. Nên chồng vừa nói ngọt một cái, mình lại cảm giác mình hơi..có lỗi :))

Hehe

Hôm qua furniture trong phòng ngủ đã về hết rồi :x Giường to, đẹp, thích lắm :x Nhưng gần 15 người mới bê được cái đệm của mình lên :))

Cuối tuần phòng thay đồ của mình sẽ về :x

Lah lah

Love

Hal

xoxo

18/3 - one month left

When 2 people are in love, there're a few moments you can feel that he loves you with all his heart and his soul. And he'd do everything to make you feel safe and happy

Lucky me, I've felt this way, with the man I'm going to get married next month

Today, 18/3. Only one month left.

I'm feeling good

I'm in love with this life, and looking forward to the new chapter of my life

I love taking care of my new family

I love to do everything with him

I know marriage ain't easy like love. But at least right now, I feel no regret for what I've chosen :)

Love

Hal

xoxo

Happiness. Pure. Light, Clear

I hope I could always feel happy in this kinda way.

A very free happiness, in my heart, my mind, and my soul

So pure.

So light.

So clear.

He has been so sweet to me recently, I mean in a very special way, like the first days we met. Some kinda feeling that I can't explain, just like a sense.

Looking back what we've been through together. Too many mixed feelings. Are we meant to be? Yes we are, right? Tell me that we are :) Coz your love makes my heart warm, so warm. Recently so warm that I can't believe you're mine.

34 days left till my wedding.

I can't wait :)

Love

Hal

xoxo

Fly me to the moon

Time is flying so quickly

I got a kinda sick weekend, got a cold so I had to take medicines.

Haiz

I got 4 days off at the fitness centre. And the bad news was my personal trainer quit. He moved to another company to work, leave me here alone wiht aroung 50 classes left :(( I'll be moved to another trainer

Yesterday I went to a friend's wedding party. It was cute anyway :D Such a cute wedding

I don't really have much time with my Tieu bff recently.

And yesterday my husband helped me to back up my iphone, so I lost all of my photos and contacts :(((( which is such a tragedy to me now :((((

And I'm kinda scared of time :(

Fly me to the moon

Love

Hal

xoxo

I got a very nice 8/3. Maybe the best ever

Woke up at 6, my hubby came to send me flowers. He bought 100 roses for me it was too heavy that could wake me up totally that kinda early :p Thank u baby :x Happy monthsary to us :x

After that I came to the airport to pick my bff Tieu up. She came to help me to celebrate my hen's night lol. Then she'll have to leave b4 my wedding :( Anyway she's here now, I guess it's enuf good for me :D

Then back to the restaurant to work my ass off.

Then I went to register for mariage contract  :D so that means I'm the wife now my goodness :))

My hubby bought me a Hello Kitty bath stuff :x on the way walking to my house. He also gave me his camera. I'm gonna capture all of the moment and give them to my wedding planner. They will make a small movie to show it in our wedding :D is it a good idea?

Then we went to the cinema. We watched "That means war". Super cute movie and lotz of fun :))

And back home for dinner. Tieu passed by and gave me a lot of Kitty (again) :))

How could a 8/3 be better right? :x

Peace

Hal

xoxo

Lo xa

Mình có vẻ là một đứa lo xa một cách kỳ cục

Nhiều lúc vui vẻ hạnh phúc bình yên thì lại lo không biết mai ngày kia sẽ như nào

Đôi lúc đơn giản là lo, lo lại nghĩ bần thần cả người

...

Hạnh phúc bây giờ cũng đơn giản lắm

Ăn một bữa cơm ngon

Mua được một vài thứ đồ yêu thích

Xem một bộ phim hay

Chăm sóc Edward :p Dù chẳng phải con do mình sinh ra, nhưng đôi lúc thấy bé khóc mình cũng xót ruột, thấy bé cười thì lại muốn khóc vì vui.

Có thời gian loanh quanh với bạn bè

Yêu người mình yêu và được người mình yêu yêu

:))

Tháng 3 rồi, chẳng còn mấy ngày nữa đâu

Love

Hal

xoxo

Sunny Monday

Report of Monday 05 March 2012

The weather was perfect today. The sun was gorgeousssssssss :Xxxx after rainy and dirty days

I went out with Kim today. We WALKED. Yes :)) my sister never wants to walk to hang around with me. She always uses motorbike even it only takes around 3 mins to get to the place. We finished what we had to do: banking, documents, shopping, supermarket.

Then got back home to tidy up my closet

The restaurant was so damn busy today.

And I had dinner with my friends. Actually I was trying to introduce them to each other. Hopefully there'll be a good ending for them. God bless :x

Everything has been running well.

That's all I wanna say :)

Love. Family. Friends. Life.

Hal

xoxo

When ppl getting drunk

Ppl always do crazy things when they're drunk

I've seen so many ppl get drunk in my life.

Some because of breaking up

Some because of fighting with their bf/gf

Some because of they're happy

Some because of they just want to

And they say "I'm not drunk" all the time tho they can't even stand on their  own feet.

I've seen a few ppl who cannot be drunk no matter how much they've been drinking
I think that's the worst thing. When you wanna get drunk to forget what's happening, but you just can't

And me, when I'm drunk I can't speak Vietnamese. I usually and only can understand Eng, sometimes I mix them with my own language lol. And when I'm drunk, my biggest fear is I can't see anyone and the next morning is hangover problem
 
Today I remember quite a long time ago, there used to be a friend, who didn't mind to wake me up at anytime just to say something very clear "I think I'm drunk". And I'd always say "Give me 10mil". - "Ok then tmr".
And tmr if he didn't give me a buck, that means he was really drunk. Coz he was the only one who always and always keep his every single words. Once he speaks out, he'll do it for sure
.

:))

Oh my old days.

I'm getting married. So somehow I'll have to say goodbye to my wild time. Forget some drunk parties. Forget some hanging around doing nothing. And forget smt that could hurt..

Goodnite

Hal

xoxo

Tuesday 28/02

Is it true that if you open your heart to ppl, they will open theirs to you too?

Such a busy day , from this place to that place

Haven't had any real meal today

Drinking too much water, all kind from wine to mineral, bitter to sweet things

Feb is going to end soon

Then March. Then April

Not many days left

Somehow I start to feel "family" now

Mệt!

Một ngày quá dài và mệt, mình chẳng muốn động tay chân đến bất kỳ cái gì nữa. Thậm chí bây giờ ngồi đây nhưng chẳng biết phone vứt ở đâu luôn, cũng chẳng muốn biết luôn

Cũng chỉ là đi ra đường với bạn bè

Cũng chỉ là làm việc bận rộn

Cũng chỉ là đi đến nhà thờ

Nhưng sao hôm nay mệt thế

Vừa cạo gió, bị cảm thôi rồi :(

Mình cảm thấy căng thẳng về mặt tinh thần còn đáng sợ gấp trăm lần căng thẳng về mặt thể xác.

Giờ phát hiện ra mình khá là xấu tính vì ko bao giờ có đủ kiên nhẫn

Cơ mà xin người, đừng bắt tôi đứng ở giữa bao giờ

Mệt xác

Thấy mệt mỏi quá đi mất thôi

Falling in love

Suddenly feeling like getting back to the past - when I was totally single

Been out with Kimmy my sister a lot. Junk food, shopping, super market, wandering out in the street :D

Been out with my friends. Drinking, chatting, cafe-ing, going to the cinema together

The summer is in Hanoi today :D The weather was so perfect to stay outdoor. So I skipped my gym and went to see "Man on the ledge" with my friends

I love this all kinda feelings.

Love it

Hal

xoxo

Not enough

Yes, maybe the reason why I can't ask anyone to stay for me, because simply I'm just not good enough

Not enough to make anyone want to stay

Not enough to make anyone want to love

And not enought to make anyone want to hold for a long time

I used to say I just want Happiness to stay with me a little longer

But actually it's never

Now I think one of the reasons is me.

It's so cold

There's always someone for someone. But what if you never find that someone?

:)

Would you?

If you knew you could never be the reason for someone to stay. Would you still love him?

I'm not trying to blame myself . But it's true that I've never been enough for anyone to stay

If someone tried to stay for me, then it means "too late"

...

Why it always happens to me?

Why?

Bad dreams again...

Another bad dreams again. I don't think I have enuf courage to go to sleep again. 3 days 3 stories and nothing was good. I could feel the tears in my eyes now and my heart is still beating so fast. 

I'm scared

I'm scared

I'm scared

I'm so scared

Last night in my dreams, 2 of the most important ppl in my life betrayed me. Left me. Simply. Easily. 

I can feel this pain so clearly

So clearly that I think everything is real

...

What's wrong with me?

Bad dreams again...

Another bad dreams again. I don't think I have enuf courage to go to sleep again. 3 days 3 stories and nothing was good. I could feel the tears in my eyes now and my heart is still beating so fast. 

I'm scared

I'm scared

I'm scared

I'm so scared

Last night in my dreams, 2 of the most important ppl in my life betrayed me. Left me. Simply. Easily. 

I can feel this pain so clearly

So clearly that I think everything is real

...

What's wrong with me?

Dreams...

There're some kinda dreams that make me wanna wake up asap

These last 2 days, I dunno why I had long dreams everytime I go to bed at night. Something very misterious. And it pulled my head and my heart down. I felt so tired everytime I wake up.

Some familiar face but I don't know exactly who

Some old stories but I don't know what it is

...

I'm pretty tired and I feel some kinda lost...

Sometimes it's just "not enough"...

Voila, au revoir